Th3re is No absOlute iN LifE :)

2009-12-04T06:17:00.001-08:00

yoyo, paiseh paiseh.. sudah lama tak update ni..
quite bz lately, assignments' deadline all are approaching..
but well, at least im still alive rite :D ?

nw im abit free already after the hectic and PACKED schedule that i have..

and welcome to my 2 new members :D

new rubik's cube :D

but then, the shape kinda weird rite ?

V

allspark from transformer... pretty cool huh :D ?

so welcome mr mirror's cube to the rubik's tribe here :P

(ignore the 100plus cap==)

then then..

haha, violin violin ^^

many many credits to cornas my bro for lending me his violin :D
learning how to play a violin is tougher than piano n guitar[based on my experience la]..
ngek ngek ngek, at least nw i can play twinkle twinkle little star with violin xD

till then..
a short post indeed ~ ^^

2009-11-13T10:38:00.001-08:00

it's almost 3am in the morning..
and here i m, blogging bcoz it passes my bedtime dy now..

recently many many things happen around me..
i had great moments with my college friends..
meet some new friends..

seriously, i was in a severe mood swing lately..
i guess it's bcoz of the unconscious stresses that i'm facing now..

assignments.. practical assessment.. midterms.. and of cause the INTERNSHIP!!!
many of us r facing major obstacles in deciding where to go.. who to ask.. and how to ask=.=

apparently, i did contact some organizations.. and hopefully i'll receive good news after i submit my CV la..

well, seriously pray that i'll get back to my good good mood b4 my practical assessment la.. if nt, 30minutes of counselling session will be gg-ed..

some sort of prophecy?

2009-11-01T16:03:00.000-08:00

i'm nt sure wat happens, but tis is sth that i had experienced b4..

last time when i was young[yala im still young now], i used to dream about war EVERYTIME b4 cny for 7 years.. same dream and same time too.. i couldnt really recall back that dream vividly as i stops dreaming bout it after i told my mom about the dream i had.

wat i can rmb nw is that im seeing the dream as a 3rd person view n n n sometimes i can b 1 of the soldier down there, talking, fighting and killing.. [such violence for a naive, young, cute little boy for me tat time]

and nw, im having another dream that comes to me recently. i dream about going to future where i see my siblings,my son,mother but i cant find my dad n me myself..

i see tat my brother is signing contract in a conference and hahaha, finally he's married to my ah so now.. the room setting of his is still the same, jz hv more photos and accesory only..

on the other hand, my sis.. fuiyoh, dam crazy.. had lots of certificate, awards and if i m nt mistaken, she has to fly here, fly there as she's very bz with her work.. another part in my early dream is that she went to study abroad too..

meanwhile, my mom. she's the same still playing mahjong at my home.

interesting part is that, i met my son.. he looks like mixed, can say like matsaleh. but actually i think is bcoz of my gene only coz i do look like mat saleh when i was young[no lie no lie] my son, he seems to be very passionate in studying and lol, he has russian accent but he speaks mandarin to me.. lolx.. n got to know my future wife's surname is 钱..

hahaha, kinda funny la the dream that i hv. but the weird part is that, i cn actually continue the same dream in 2 different day??

is it coincidence?
or is it true that i went back to future :P?

p/s: u can skip by asking me the toto for tat day, coz the year i rmb i went to is 3309 year=.= which is totally make no sense... hahahaa..

2009-10-27T07:44:00.000-07:00

there are always improvements for the gaps we have..

thanks every^^!!

Johari Window Model

2009-10-26T03:53:00.000-07:00

came across to this model when the lecturer refer some aspects of self-awareness..

basically, there are four concepts that are stated in this Johari Window Model:

open[aka open-self] refers to those that u urself and others know about.. like ur age, gender, race,life role etc etc etc..

blind[aka blind-self] refers to those that u urself hv no idea about it whereas others may see it as obvious as is it.. for example, ur body odour, the way u treat fren, the way u talk, the way u walk etc etc etc..

hidden[aka hidden-self] refers to those that only u urself know about it and people around u do not hv any clue about it.. for example, ur darkest secret? like my darkest secret is...... of coz im not telling u then it wont be my hidden-self dy rite? :D

lastly, this is most tera 1, the unknown [aka unknown-self]. this self refers to the characteristics that u urself dunno bout it and others also tak tau. sound kinda abstract huh? actually it exists in u but it is buried deep inside the ur subconscious state or perhaps unconscious state of urs. the behaviours might be activated when u're asleep? like mayb u float half cm from the bed when u're sleeping? or when u meet a fight or flight situation where ur potential in fleeing increase and exceed the normal potential of urs..

well, for all these craps that i wrote, the real intention is that actually i'm amazed with human's capability. our limits have no boundary, our potentials are not defined and our abilities are unpredictable.. like some scientists say that we only use less than 10% of our brain in carrying out our daily activities, solving mathematics question, sketching drawing but wat about the rest of the brain?

will it be like if the rest of our brain's potential is unleashed, will we be gaining abilities like how our beloved characters gain in the series of "Heroes" ? we might be able to see micro things like germs or bacteria, or smell things frm 10km ahead or we can create electricity by using our brain wave???

hahaha.. although it is so unrealistic jz by imagining it, but who knows? one day ur son comes to u and said:" mom, i accidently sux out all the oxygen in my classroom.. what to do?" then mayb u should feel proud about it in a positive way, rather bi bi la la , cry like hell there, asking for treatment and grounding ur son for sux-ing the air..

think about it,
what ability might we possess if the hidden-self of us is familiarized :)

2009-10-19T07:14:00.001-07:00

and yeah,

will be getting my last sem's result by tmr..

....

2009-10-05T05:20:00.000-07:00

well people, tmr im starting my year 2 sem 2 already lorr..
dam, time flies and 1 more sem then i'll b finishing my diploma already..

cant wait to see all my coll frens ^^
im sure every1 is doing great in their sem break, rite?

haha..
here's some shoots to share with u all ^^

all rite then.. gambateh gambateh for tis new sem ^^ !!

muahahahahaaaaaa~

2009-10-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

witnessed 1st LIVE tennis match..

tennis is so so interesting.. especially when u're doing the surf. highest record that i noticed today was 218kmh!!! really walao ah, try to imagine u kena smack by tat surf..

and i start to doubt acts in 网球王子 already.. LOL.. reality is always the most realistic 1 >.>

well i'll try to take more photos to upload soon..
b patient ya ^^

p/s : recently so many ppl sick dy, take good care la.. adui ~

wake me up when september ends

2009-10-01T07:29:00.000-07:00

time flies. yoo hoo, few more days then i'll b starting my new sem already..
tis time it's much more serious already, lots of practical and challenges ahead.
and tis sem we hv ethic tis subject, gonna start memorizing the laws already.. ~.~

btw, tmr i'll be working as event crew at stadium bukit jahil for the Proton Malaysia Open.
mayb bcoz of the influence of the anime of " 网球王子", so i'm quite interested in tennis also..

really looking forward for tmr event!! haha~

ps: our result for yr 2 sem 3 will be out on 20th oct.. [omg]..
wish me luck !!

2009-09-24T20:45:00.000-07:00

sometimes there are things where it is nt as predictable as it seems to be,
we may plan for a shopping list to limit our budgets but sometimes we hv exceed it,
we may plan to watch which move, where and how to go, but sometimes it can be out of seat,
we may choose which restaurant to go and what to eat there, but sometimes the menu jz doesnt hv the dishes u like..

life is jz like that, ppl said it better to plan for the future, to set up goals and to execute in realising the aims that u planned. but obstacles, unpredicatabled variables usually appear while we're pursuing our aims.

how many of us can actually face it with strong will, passionate motivation and the buring spirit in us?

how many of us do nt blame the variables or self but to analyse and take coersive action to get back on track in pursuing our goals?

ppl usually blame this and that, these and those, pointing their fingers to numerous reasons but never evaluate themselves..

i understand, sometimes it is hard to point out our own mistake, by projecting and displacing ur inner guilt to others, eventually u feel more comfortable and secure. well, this is human's nature.

me too, while pursuing my dreams, i blame. bcoz of my ego, i dun admit my mistake easily, i always think that i know the best and decisions that i made are always better than others.

i tried to improve this egocentric mindset, day by day, some changes are seen but still it is there, dominating my daily life, is it really that impossible to change our mind?

besides, i tried my best in maintaining my friendship as i know friendship is one seasoning that i shouldn't neglect like i was in my life.. but life is realistic, when u're just an ordinary horse, u jz cant mix around with zebras..

i tried to treat people with sincerity but in the end, old wounds in me jz being cut and tear off. i dun deny that i put in some expectations and i dun deny that i'm nt tat good in mixing around with people.

of coz there are some good friends that acknowledge my sincerity and treat me back like how i treat them, jz.. perhaps it's nt tat easy to not to consider with every1 around me..

escaping isnt a way that i agree..

dont's wry :)

2009-09-24T07:46:00.000-07:00

it has been a very long time since i hv this feeling..
it's ok , james tan, i know u're tougher than this =)

no big deal !!!

fallout 3!

2009-09-17T00:22:00.000-07:00

well guys, here's the updated post that i promised :P

so so.. it's my sem break holiday now and ya.. i gt 2 long weeks to enjoy myself :D haha.. forgot to mention that i had a new supreme desktop last month, to avoid nt using its geng geng features, i bought alot of games to kill some spare times now ^^

well, tis short post is jz to intro 1 of the games that im playing nw, it's is called Fallout 3.. it's a role-playing shooting game and yea.. there are lotss of bloods n organs flying around xD

Fallout 3: this dude is ur main character[but u need to get the armor n guns urself xD]

well, i'll skip the whole story of tis game la bcoz the story line is quite long 1 [actually i havent finish playing.. skip konon xD] but try "clicking here" if u wish to know more..

so i'll upload some of the photos to show u the graphic of this game:D

it all started in wasteland in US after some sort of radiation..

and ya.. u cant live in the house and no, i cant drive that car^^

all rite, some might ask, who do u actually encounter in this game?

alien? zombie?
ghost? vampire?
human? house?
car?

actually this is not a horror game as horrow game nt fun 1[coz i paid for the game to scare myself, wt's the point?? kk== i admit, i takut ma.. xD] foes that i encounter so far are mostly :

they call this green shit orc as super mutant.. dam their skin r tough=.=

ya u're right, it's a human n they love playing hide n seek with ya.

ghouls that wear pants only and keep charging to let u shoot them 99..

wt's the point, mr ghoul =/ ?

haha, there're some doggies here also.. [sry animal lovers :(]

yeap, lastly it's this dam ugly + disgusting lame creature that split on u and lick u with it's tongues[3 tongues omemore], the name of this lamer is centaur.. wtf lo, humiliate the name of centaur.. zz.

i rmb telling u flying of blood n organ rite ? haha..

haha, so far these r jz some of the photos that im sharing here.. hmm, my rating for this game is around 7.8/10 only la.. except for the plots, i found that there isnt much of climaks in the game..

hug,

j/\m3s

2009-09-10T08:47:00.001-07:00

here's some surprizes for u..

http://rainbowtrendy.blogspot.com/

2009-09-09T05:09:00.000-07:00

sorry sorry for the late update..
kinda lazy lately, lolx..

currently status :

Exam-stage (2 down 3 more to go)
learning fall for you in my guitar :P

this blog will undergo massive reconstruction after i finish my exam.. wait for it ya ^^ thx to every1 for viewing this half-dead blog(it'll reincarnate soon!!!)

hug,
James

2009-06-23T03:53:00.000-07:00

all rite all rite.. here i m, updating for my blog==
sry la as i was very bz lately with my study(ya rite, as if im tat hardworking xD)...

my life for 2nd year.. hmmm.. frankly i feel tired to travel frm ampang to TARC everyday especially when there're morning classes at 8am(n there're 3 morning class in a week), luckily i hv kaki to acc me to go bak so my boredom can be killed abit la xD

hmmm..
jz visited some of my friends' blogs n saw their happy happy love story of them with their loved one.. ahh... how to say bout tis feeling.. hmmm.. at tat moment, i really feel hpy for them bcoz they enjoy their relationship and hey!! i really feel hpy n proud for u guys!!

i hv been enjoying my single life for few months already but sometimes, some emptiness do kacau kacau me abit :P my frens ask me to go find another 1 but haha, it's not tat easy to find a gf, especially a really good girl =)

n i know im quite picky 1 :P so this make it more difficult.. ehmm.. ppl do say i look dam strict n scary when i keep quiet.. so i guess i hv scared away potential girl indirectly dy :D ?? haha.. hv to blame my mom for tis [no offensive mummy :P]

and bcoz i hv learned from my experience n ppl around me, my doubt in starting a new relationship is getting more n more.. i hv so much to consider about and so many to wry to if i really started one..

getting involved into relationship is not the whole of my life, my path to be success in psychology field is still v v long to go.. so wat can i do? no target, no gf so will b shifting my concentration in my study lo since my senior year is getting tougher, more expectation are being expected also..

so i'll use my best wishes n best luck to wish all my frens who r dating:

play hard , study smart , date often :P

n for those who r single like me, dun feel low self-esteem.. being single isnt as bad as we think[although u might find it's difficult to ask some1 to acc u for a movie sometimes :P].. the time is yet to come, believing fate as it never let us down.. =)

Life is a mist,
Without direction, Without coordination,
But be brave n have faith,
Unexpected hope of light will drop by,
without any notification... =)

2009-05-06T07:10:00.000-07:00

what do u guys think bout this photo?
haha, i personally like it bcoz of the light effect n the arrangement of the keys..
seems elegant for me ^^

:P

2009-04-26T03:50:00.000-07:00

feeling or reasoning?

in every relationship that i have witnessed,
its starting,
its climaxes,
and its ending..

its easy to get started and ended.. but its hard to maintain the climax.. often, i ask some of my friends.. why do u choose to engage with him/her? what makes u decide to be with him/her?
as expected, majority of them answered:"it is the Feeling"

feeling.. actually how can we define feeling? it is so abstract and subjective that only the host of it understand how he/she feels.. realistically, human are choosy in selecting their mates.. they value the benefits that they can gain from their mates, they emphasis on the physical appearances that their mates possess and realistically, they never mention about "feeling"..

so im wondering between feeling and reasoning..
to date someone..
which 1 comes 1st?

the feeling that u have towards him/her?
or the reason why u wan to date him/her?

feeling cant fullfill your hunger but reasoning can hardly makes u feel attracted to ur mate..
so which 1 is ur criteria b4 u know who to choose to be with?

the feeling?
or the reason?

2009-04-15T07:54:00.000-07:00

7weeks of learning ends today quietly..
the same route to travel back home..
the same smiles,voices,faces that i see around me..

slowly, we are all entering senior year..
where bigger challenges are lying in front of us..
more exposures will be experienced..

but..
do we learned anything during our junior year?

this may be a short sem..

but, i have learned something new in these few weeks..
i learned that different people have their different ways in expressing their thoughts..
i learned that different messages can be different when they are received by different people..
i learned that silence is really golden yet it is hard to practise..
i learned that memories are meant to keep and not to be discharged..
i learned that force does not solve everything perfectly..
i learned that the more we learned, the little we know..
i learned that expecting too many will bring more unnecessary disappointments..
i learned that rushing wont bring us to anywhere safely..
i learned that different people should be treated differently..
i learned that i am not a born-counsellour..
i learned that i need to be more patient..
i learned that a single nodding is far more efficient and better than explaining massively..
i learned that people change.. from time to time.. and improve at the same time..
i learned that never underestimate anyone around us as they have hidden potential which we might not aware of it..
and..
i learned that it is not easy to be a leader.. especially to be a leader that influences..

haha.. there are still alot of things that i wish to improve myself in.. and there are still alot of things i hope to be expose to..

hopefully everything will be fine soon..

a another pause~

2009-03-11T05:30:00.000-07:00

fuhhh.. the time flies so fast, now i'm entering 2nd week in my 3rd sem already.. haha, still rmb my desperation moment when i was like gasping for the arrival of 3rd sem :P

well i received my result for 2nd sem dy, n nt bad nt bad.. still need to ganbateh more in tis sem=) coz tis is one new big challenge for me.. a short yet packed sem..

in tis sem,im exposed to new experience, dealing with new subjects, new teaching styles and new knowledges.. of coz to adapt myself in a different atmosphere now.. alot of changes happen lately n yet im still trying my very best to prepare myself to be the best tat i can be..

everything has its 1st time 1.. today is my 1st time to conduct a "counselling session" in the class.. haha, although im voluntered for it but still i can feel the butterflies[nono, all sort of insects xD] flying inside my stomach.. haha.. lucky i keep pushing confidence into my stomach to calm myself down.. my awareness can say like in e=mc2 at tat time [everytime mong cha cha].. actually i dun really aware of the surrounding... until i put a table in between us[me n the 'client'] but it's a forbidden act u know? coz table, in tis case will cause a barrier btw me n the client.. luckily my smart classmates told me bout it.. haha.. thx guys :D

then then.. i start to use everything tat come across in my mind in tat counselling session.. like how carl roger talks to his client.. how my lecturers taught me.. and how i "imagine" when im giving some1 counselling.. luckily... i din do tat much of mistake.. haha.. i think i really hav a looooong journey to move on..

dam~ im falling in love with this course dy.. my interest is doubled or tripled as the lecturer explains to us bout counselling process.. never in my life, my brain "spins" tat fast u know? haha.. i imagine all those unpredictable incident tat might happen during the counselling process n answer some of the imagination myself at the same time.. lolx, i like tis feeling.. the feeling while im brain storming..

haha.. muz ganbateh ganbateh harder in tis sem dy.. coz it's my chance to stabilize my foundation in my counselling skills.. muz b initiative dy=)

i guess i'll stop here la.. later gt ppl say my blog alot of wording la.. haha.. sry ya, i tak da photos for now:D... coming soon coming soon ^^v

tagged by riz..

2009-02-27T17:04:00.000-08:00

1. Who tagged you?
Rizal, my coursemate =)

2. Do you like tags?
errr.. depends la, if i'm dam free like now.. y not?

3. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to be able to strike higher in my education level..

4. What is your current mood?
S.I.E.N laaa.. holiday for 3 weeks dy.. really nth to do at all xD

5. What will you do if your crush says he/she adores you too?
haha.. surely i'll b overjoyed la.. but then, not really hv a crush now ^^

6. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
maybe.. maybe not.. love is unpredictable.. no one knows when the sparks come n go..

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7. Which will you prefer, loving someone or being loved by someone?
hmmm.. loving some1 but does nt hv any respond is kinda painful also.. but then, being loved by some1 but we dun really love them is v unfair to them.. i think.. i prefer balance abit in this matter la..

8. What is your favourite food?
spicy stuff la of coz.. haha..

9. If the person you dislike is right in front of you, what will you do?
ignore lo.. x really need to show tat i beh song tat person 1.. tat's public face ^^v

10. What do you pray each day for your loved ones?
err.. pray for their safety la of coz.. p/s: my loved ones r my family :D

11. What takes you down the fastest?
hmmm.. bad performance in my study lo.. but then, being downed wont solve a thing 1..

12. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
haha.. perhaps still studying lar.. who knows??

13. What is the reason that could make you so tensed up?
uncertain decision? new experience?

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
errr.. a unique person =)

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
good question.. haha, i'm quite realistic so i prefer single and rich.. coz i dun wan to drag my future spouse into poor lifestyle.. if i wan to get married, i'll gv the best to my future spouse n my family.. no doubt of it !!

16. Would you sacrifice for your loved ones?
ya.. did it b4.. the lesson that i learned is tat.. dun simply sacrifice la.. sometimes sacrifice isnt needed especially if ur loved ones does not appreciate it.. how also, i'll still try my best to gv the best to my loved ones 1..

17. What's the character must have in your partner?
hmmm.. surely muz b mature enough la.. knowing the do's n dont's .. i dislike those who r nt serious in relationship 1..

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you like to pick?
wa.. y tis question like 2 ppl i also can pick 1? haha.. ermm, i think i'll do more evaluation in my choices la.. foremost i'll confirm with my feeling 1st.. whether i'm falling in love/liking/admiring.. unfair for the girls if i choose them emotionally 1..

19. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
depends.. if it's the 1st time he/she did, of coz i'll b tolerant.. if nt.. haha..

20. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
both also hv their strong point 1.. being single can do watever we wan.. LOL.. n we wont pk tat easily.. haha.. but then, we'll feel lonely sometimes ^^ then if we're having a relationship, we hv commitments and roles to carry out dy.. if we meet the correct person.. we'll b enjoy carrying roles n commitments.. if nt.. then good luck lo ^^v

21. What kind of music do you like?
jazz.. classical n pop type :D

22. Who are the 5 person that you would like to tag?
haiz.. tis again.. cincai la.. whoever wan to do jz do it..

another sharing =)

2009-02-13T07:33:00.001-08:00

1. 真正爱你的男人，一下子说不出真正爱你的理由，只知道自己顾不上注意别人。　
　　
2．真正爱你的男人，其实总惹你生气，你却发觉不了他到底做错了什么。
　　
3．真正爱你的男人，很少当面赞美你，可是心里肯定你是他最棒的。
　　
4．真正爱你的男人，会在你忘记回复他短信时狠狠地说你一顿。
　　
5．真正爱你的男人，只可能在你一个人的面前流眼泪，当你触摸到他时，也触摸到了那颗只为你跳动的心。
　　
6．真正爱你的男人，会默默地记住你不经意说过的话，在某时某刻重复它们。
　　
7．真正爱你的男人，不会轻易做出承诺，因为他想让自己成为你心中说话最算话的男子汉，只想给你最可靠最安全的幸福。
　　
8．真正爱你的男人，总告诉你不要胡思乱想，因为其实他在为你们谋划着最美丽真实的未来。同时让你无忧无虑地等待他要给你的惊喜。
　　
9．真正爱你的男人，可能不像你一样清楚地记得某些纪念日，他觉得爱你是每时每刻的，并不是靠这几天简单的日子。
　　
10．真正爱你的男人，不会轻易对你当面说“我爱你”，因为他为你做过的每件事都已经这么说了。除非在非常时刻，为了不让你无端地误解他。
　　
11．真正爱你的男人，总觉得有些话只说一遍就够了，因为你已经了解他的心。说得多了，他会觉得不珍贵。
　　
12．真正爱你的男人，如果他去机场接你，不会像你期望的那样捧着玫瑰大声叫“亲爱的”，只是自然地提过你的行李，然后想用眼睛抱紧你似的心疼地说，怎么瘦得像豆芽菜了？
　　
13．真正爱你的男人，当你发脾气时，只会不做声地听你把火发完，然后慢慢地说，你明天有课吗？早点睡吧。
　　
14．真正爱你的男人，不懂当你生气挂掉电话后应该立即打来，过了若干小时后会发条短信问你消气了没有？如果你质问他为何这么久才打来，他会理直气壮的说，你生气时我的解释一定没有用，等你的火消了，我的解释才有效果。
　　
15．真正爱你的男人，总是叫你小姑娘，可是每次他做什么重大的决定，却总想先听听你的建议。
　　
16．真正爱你的男人，不喜欢玩具小毛熊，却一直把你送他的小熊放在床头。　
　　
17．真正爱你的男人，当和你发生争执时，总是控制不了地先妥协，先承认“我错了”，过后发来短信以“神经病”开头，以“宝贝”结尾。事实上你也清楚，这次是你有点无理取闹。　
　　
18．真正爱你的男人，很想很想你时，也会买玫瑰送你，傻傻地等着你，却不知道自己捧的是月季。没关系，他的心里送的是玫瑰。
　　
19．真正爱你的男人，都不甜，但是他的吻能传递他嘴巴所有的热情。
　　
20．真正爱你的男人，当听到你对他讲很“酸”的话时，他反而会装得很正经，其实心里很甜很甜。
　　
21．真正爱你的男人，如果不能经常见到你，他会让自己忙碌起来，为了不去想你，因为他知道一想你将会一发不可收拾．．

2009-02-13T00:15:00.000-08:00

another weird weather we hv now.. for a moment, it's shinning sunny dayzz ; after awhile, raining pulak.. man! the weather freaks me out sometimes.. seriously our earth seems to change alot lately.. higher temperature, not fixed weather...

here i m again.. blogging to kill some of the boredoms i hv.. jz browsed back wat i had written in the past n compare it with my recent posts.. hahaha.. really kinda shocked with the post i wrote..

the grammar part.. i was shocked when i was reading my previous posts.. seriously i dun rmb tat i can actually use such bombastic terms u know? lol, no wonder pppl say i lebih lebih in writing my blog la.. now only i can understand bout it.. hahaha..

another thing tat i can sense while reading my previous blog is the deep deep emo aura tat i can feel.. LOL, if i din read back on wat i wrote, i dun even know tat i wrote such emo post about my SSA gang.. ahaha.. i really cant believe tat during tat time, i wrote till like i'm the most cham person in the world.. like no fren, no ppl care about.. another lonely person.. HAHAHA.. really feel v funny about those posts.. now when i look back, i aware the existance of james tan's childish part.. haha..

i once said like every1 is isolating me, rejecting me, repelling me and no 1 care about my comments.. LOL.. those harsh stuff i wrote about.. those flame,swear i gave.. hahaha.. seriously tat's a stage where a teen went via during puberty.. immaturity n negative thoughts r really critical.. when i flashed back the scene where james tan is behaving immaturely n negatively, man!! i think i had hurted alot of ppl around me.. now only i realise, they dun lose faith on me themselves but it's wat i did tat made them to lose faith on me.. i start to believe in the law of cause n effect.. and of coz.. karma..

throughout the day since i started to blog.. i really met alot of new ppl, new experiences, up's n down's... no matter it is academically, financially, romantic issue, friendship issue or family issue.. when i look back n think.. james tan really learned alot from them.. for all the marks tat r left on them.. haha.. the problem tat i face now isnt as serious as b4..

i hv aware that, ppl tend to grow up from the mistakes they made.. the failure they faced.. n the misfortune they were in.. frm all the words that i left in my blog.. y only until now i question myself.. wat hv i learned.. wat did/do i rmb.. how is my growth..

sometimes , we need to take a break frm wat r we doing now.. to hv a quick flashback on wat hv we did.. wat we hv missed.. wat do we hv now... as i mention early, appreciate the valuables tat we hv.. bcoz of the new life style tat i'm trying to adapt with, i realise tat my distance wif some of my frens is getting further.. i dun contact with them tat often anymore.. for all the outings n events we hv together.. i was really hpy tat time.. haha.. i laughed purely without wry-ing about a thing.. i was more naive tat time i guess..

but then..
i'm satisfied with my life now =)

seeing new ppl..
contacting with new issues..
achieving new goals..
maintaining new attitudes..

haha...

what a LIFE!!!

grow up james =)!!!

inner voice of me..

2009-02-02T05:58:00.000-08:00

every person that we meet in our life will leave different footprints in our memories..we encounter lots of lots of different people, among them i'm sure there's some1 who is unique to u and i.. that others might perceive differently about them than u.. well, here's a character that really leave unique footprints in my memory..

i learned alot of things from her, from the way i talk to the way i dress up.. from the way i think to the way i behave.. fr0m the way i see myself to the way she sees me.. and from the way i was to the way i am now..

believe it o not, i'm much more polite after i meet her.. everytime when i said sth wrong verbally, i'll get the message about it; everytime i say sth nice and appropriate, i get another message about it.. 1st message is : wei, behave behave.. 2nd message is : i gt the support and sometimes stuff tat i say r continued by her as well.. strange huh? stubborn yet sarcastic james tan can be controlled afterall.. haha :P

next is the way i dress.. i'm really hpy that my way of dressing really change since i'm exposed to know how to choose a more suitable outfit for myself.. sometimes it really doesnt matter how u look, but it's the way u dress up and how u match up the cloth u hv.. branded or expensive cloth do not mean they're nice.. u jz need to choose appropriate outfits tat really fit u.. and this, i learned from her.. with rm10 shirt, we can make it look like rm50..

actually, i'm a narrow-minded guy.. or i should replace narrow as old-tradisional.. haha.. my thinking was like ur ah ma or ur great great grandma.. kinda strange huh for a counselling psychology student, open-minded is really needed.. coz we're dealing with many types of clients.. but then, my ah ma thinking change once i meet her.. i dun feel regret or wat that i'm more advanced in thinking or modernized.. but of coz.. i still remain my tradision core.. my root of culture..

the way how i behave.. hmmm.. this 1.. kinda unbelieveable.. i'm nt as immature as i was b4, i'm nt as ridiculous as i was and of coz.. i'm not like the old james tan that i know last time.. really i changed alot.. i'm not as aggressive/combative as b4 that i always wan to compare myself with others, i know how to show my care to people around me.. i understand about the meaning about "dun listen to one part of one conversation only".. and i know how to take care of the ppl i care, how to show them my appreciation to them and how to maintain my commitments to them..

she changes the way i see myself.. i perceived myself as a really perfect person, dominant in a way that my plan or my decision is always the best choice to be followed.. i perceived myself to be a very negative thinking person, a very emotional person and of coz a very sensitive person.. but when i meet her, i changed.. still i'm dominant person but i'm hpy to say that i'm dominant in a more flexible way.. now i learn how to listen to others' comment,opinions and i learn how to accept them as well.. still, i'm emotional and sensitive but wat i can confirm is that i'm improving myself.. i'm really really better than how i was during high school.. during high school, i can say that i'm having mood disorder-mood swing.. but after i meet her, my mood always swing to the joy part.. i'm always in my happiest time.. i even smile when i'm asleep[ ha!!] .. unbelieveable huh? tat's the fact..

and thus, i change the way she sees me.. i was like a impolite person, sarcastic, not gentlemen, nt caring type of guy when she 1st meets me.. but as time passes, i manage to develop a better image to others tat include her.. i'm serious type, caring and always put the people that i really care b4 myself.. when i hv rm2, i might even spend rm2 for the person i really care.. when we're both hungry and i only hv one piece of bread, i really will gv the bread to another person.. i rather b hungry.. bcoz the satisfaction i get by seeing the person i care as in happy, pleasant is enough.. enough for me to be like tat way.. haha, i'm not noble nor stupid.. it's jz a way how i show my appreciation and it seems to b the stupid-est way to u isnt it? but.. it really worth it.. it really does..

the way i was and the way i am now.. this really matters.. i still believe what is written in the paper of the small small test that i gave her last time.. wat she's dislike about me, i still remember wat i hv promised to her, wat i hv say to her.. all the sweet memories that we hv together r vanished bcoz of the hurtful moments i brought to her.. whereas everytime i was emotional, irrational and uncontrolable.. everytime i said i'll change,i'll control myself, no more next time; but in the end, she's the victim that gets hurt from my false promise.. i cant blame her tat she's mad at me bcoz of it.. even for me i'll feel the same.. if a person tat really cares bout u hurt u for not once but several times, how will u feel?

i made a promise with my soul.. the emotional,irrational and uncontrolable part of me i'll try my best.. no no.. i'll do best to control it.. i believe tis is wat's best for u.. the best present tat i can ever gv to u that is to keep the promises that i set..

although it seems to b late to do so.. ppl tend to feel regret when they lose sth.. ppl only wan to change themselves when they lose sth.. ppl only know wat they lose when they're at tat time.. but wat i believe in is time..

time will tell her that i really care about her..
time will tell her that i'm really serious to change the annoying jamestan that she know to the james tan that she wants to see..
time will tell her that i'm not joking this time..
time will tell her those..

as the lyrics of i'm yours.. rainbow.. vulnerable still surrounding me.. i dun feel that i'll give up.. the smile on ur face n the laughter we have together.. it gives me the strength to continue this long journey.. the long journey to win myself.. to tame myself..

thank you for leaving ur footprint in my memories..
thank you for teaching me so many things that i hv learned from u..
thank you for letting me to ngam u[yup i know i'm annoying in long gas^^]
to care about u[sometimes too over rite?]
and ..
to share happiness and sorrowness with u[i truthly believe happiness is more than sorrowness]..
and lastly..
thank you for drawing the sunset and letting me to be part of the beautiful scenery..

i shall remember what i promised u..
i shall remember what i said to u..
and i shall not give up..

not giving up to be a successful psychologist in the future..
and not to give up to be the ideal person that u told me b4..

i'll be always there for u, no matter what happens..
no matter what happens, i'll still support u as always..

thank you..

and sry..

i'm back with some sharings

2009-01-28T22:01:00.000-08:00

hey guys,
such a long time since i last blog=)
haha..

miss me o not :D??

well, it's CNY now rite? tis year CNY kinda sux.. nth much to do also and somemore i still hv 2 more subjects to go after cny.. exam le.. haiz.. economic crisis some more, quantity n quality of angpao decreases also.. sad news for us..

well, jz wan to post sth special now so i'll write about somethings that i learned la lately =)

when 2 different worlds clash together, yes, there're sparks and heats generated out. but the scene is only temporary. in arithmethic calculation, only the same figure will produces the production of 2 multiple of one's =) kinda complicated huh?? well with the examples below,i think we'll have clearer pictures about it..

a) 1+1=2 whereas 1x2 is 2
b) 2+2=4 whereas 2x2 is 4

if 2 differnt figure add in together, the end result will be differnt when we time the either one of the figure with 2..

a)1+2=3 whereas 1x2=2, 2x2=4
b)2+3=5 whereas 2x2=4,3x2=5

actually the inner meaning that i wan to bring out is that interaction between 2 differnt people might not end up as they expected because the thoughts are differnt, the views are differnt also.. so no matter how hard they squeeze in, the end product will still be differnt, the things that they expect are still differnt from one another. let's take the arithmethic equation to explain this long long sentence :D

person A=1
person B=2
an incident that they witness= 3

1x3= 3

2x3=6

see the differences now? same thing will be seen differently by differnt people..

another sharing i wan to share here is about "appreciation"

everytime we always mumble that we're not handsome/pretty enough, we're not fit enough, we're not rich enough, we're not famous enough and etc etc etc...

but do we ever have times to say :" hey, i like how i look like" or perhaps "hmm, i think i'm satisfy with my income", moments like these will really bring satisfaction to us bcoz that we are grateful in what we have now. instead of pursuing abstraction or those which are impossible to reach, y dun we stop awhile and reflect back what we hv? having the self-awareness on awaring on our own uniqueness and stop complaining bout the small black dot on the big big whiteboard?

appreciation is important, bcoz if we do not know how to appreciate something like an object or person or even relationship with the people around us, feeling regretful only will not save anything back.. we cannot undo wat we did, we cannot retake wat we said and of coz we cannot turn back the time back and repair wat we did,wat we said and wat we decided. life is fair bcoz we're given the same opportunities, the shineness of opportunities we hold are varied for it depends on how we make it shine, how we grab it, tightly? or loosening it?

so remember to appreciate the things around us..

as we will only know the value of it when we lose it..

now it's about three stages that one experiences in some incidents.. hmmm, let's use love life as example :D..

灰心 or Discouraged..

if any partner in the relationship discourage their partners, basically they'll feel discouraged[lol of coz xD] they'll have the thoughts that y is he behaving like tat? y is she treating me like tat? but if their loves to their partners are genuine and really care about them, of coz they'll forgive them for the things that did.. but remember, forgiving and letting go do not stack, if i say i forgive u, it doesnt mean that i'm letting go the things tat u did to me.. if i say i'm letting go of the things, it doesnt mean that i'm forgiving u.. so bear this in mind, forgiving u and letting it go are 2 different elements if u tend to accept their mistake.. ask urself, r u forgiving? r u letting it go? or both..

失望 or disappointed..

disappointment really will affect the relationship,partners will begin to mistrust or doubt on the things that they say.. for example, if guy A had an affair and yes the girl B found out, guy A apologive and girl B forgave him BUT the incident still haunted the girl[means she hasnt let it go yet], so in the future, whatever the A did, B will relate it to the incident[affair].. for example, when A is away or outstation, B of coz will be thinking negatively, whether he's dating wif other girls or whether he is cheating on her.. well we cant blame the B for thinking like tat.. the unsecure feeling causes B to think so.. if A didnt take the wrong move in the 1st place, of coz B will not be thinking like tat.. so beware guys, for those who're in relationship now.. guard ur commitment and ur promises..

死心 or to give up one's hope for good..

this is really the final stage in the relationship.. if we're dissapointed or discouraged.. we can still repair it by having more sweet memories together and tolerate with each other.. but when we give up hope for GOOD.. there's no turning back..

there's a saying that when we have the first time, we'll have the second time.. tis really makes sense especially on those who are not serious in the relationship or do not care about their partners that much.

if ur partner dislike u to do sth like smoking, being late, going out with other guys/girls alone.. y do it? if u do it, it means u're not respecting them.. if they talk about it to like like "hey, i'm not hpy bcoz u smoke" or "actually i dun like u going out wif xxx" or maybe " stop being late.." then haha, u should be grateful u know? ur partner is willing to tell u wat is in his/her mind, it's better than guessing it isnt it? so be calm and think wisely about what they comment to u.
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but!!! if they din tell u wat they think, then u really hv to be aware on their non verbal dy.. raising of tones or any unusual facial expression.. if they din complain, it doesnt mean they're ok..this usually happens on girls.. girls are tend to be more introvert.. so guys.. pay more attention to the girls.. if they really dun like it.. dun do it.. every1 has their limitation as well..

although our societies are modernized, but still we have some taboos to be followed..jz bear this in mind, dun forget tat u're some1's partner.. watever u do/decide/say, always remember about their feelings.. it's good to hv some small talks with each another to know more about their inner thoughts as interactions are really really recommended in preserving the relationship..

so remember to appreciate those who are around us.. be cold when it comes into arguement, having own statement is good but try to be flexible to listen to others.. u will only know the value when u lose it..

assuming an assumption..

2008-10-21T18:35:00.000-07:00

''dun trust tat guy.. he's jz crapping around.. he wont change.."
"he's jz making an excuse.. no need to trust him"
"do u remember wat he did? he bla bla bla bla.. now he said he wanted to change himself and u believe him for tat? how could u? he once bla bla bla bla........ "

these are things that we hear around us when one people wish to change himself/herself after a mistake that he or she made..

i come across to this issue ever since i observe how ppl react when they contact with those who committed mistakes or wrong decision in the past..

to make it easy, i'll use party A to replace those who did mistakes or wrong decision..

what i have observed is that ppl often make their own assumptions towards party A.. no matter what party A say now or behave now, ppl often influenced by party A's past..

if party A said that they wish to change themselves bcoz they already realise that they're wrong in the past and they're feel regretful for making such wrong decision..

what's ur assumption? will u agree what they say? will u believe what they say? will u gv them chance to prove themselves?

NO!! i disagree, bcoz they bla bla bla in the past.. so now they're jz making excuses..
NO!! i dun believe them, bcoz they bla bla bla in the past.. so now what they'll do they'll end up like the past..
NO!! i will not gv them another chance, bcoz they bla bla bla in the past.. so i wont let myself to repeat the same mistake to let them to hurt me again..

well.. those are the general answers that will be given by normal people like u and me.. but can u see the similarity of these 3 answers?

''bcoz they bla bla bla in the past''

i can say tat ur current decision is influenced by the bad impression u hv on them and u urself have already make an assumption to party A-- they're bad, they wont change..

ask urself..
do u think that ur assumption is correct?
do u think that u can based on a small black dot on the white board then u can say that tis white board is polluted?
do u think that a polluted river cannot be cleaned back?

when a tree is cut down.. based on tis u say that it cannot grow back like it was.. but arent u making an early assumption? what u're seeing now is the physical look of the tree.. but do u really understand the inner part of it? the roots?

the best way or medicine for me for all the things that i wrote is TIME..

time can prove everything...
the validity of their changes,
the realiablity of their words
and even the real image of them can be reflected out and seen..

trees need time to grow back.. 5years,10years or even 20 years..
a polluted river need time to be cleaned.. 1year, 5year or even 10years..

then wat about human ?
a complex organism.
how long do u think they need to prove themselves?

there's no limit at all..
as humans experience growth and improvement throughout their lives..
the process called self-actualization occurs..
to be the better of themselves..
and to move towards the point of perfect where every saint wishes to achieve at..

so how can u make an assumption of how party A jz bcoz of a wrong turn in their path of life?

we're nobody to judge some1 as some1 we judge..
we're not them.. we dunno what they'll think about..
we're not god.. we dunno what will happen in the future..
we're not perfect.. we cant point our finger at some1 bcoz we're not qualified..

for party A.. appreciate the chances that are given to u to prove that u urself is not the type as how they say, how they assume and how they think about u..

if u mess up again.. then good luck..

appreciate those who appreciate u..
encourage urself as how they encourage u..
motivate urself as how they motivate u..

trust urself tat u can prove every1 that they're wrong about u..
dun gv up and b determined with ur will..
no one can really help u but only u urself can..

处女座终极完美分析

2008-10-21T08:33:00.001-07:00

处女座是另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

　　
很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。

他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人.

而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的\\'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离\\'。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美'格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关于'花心'一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关于'聪明'不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。

关于'单纯'处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，
宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于'幽默'都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于'迟钝'别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于'自私'处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关于'逃避'由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于'内涵'处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样
来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。
处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。
处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任

什么是爱情？

2008-10-18T17:56:00.001-07:00

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，

总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，

你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，

不论做什么事情，

只要能一起，就是好的，

但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，

你开始发现了对方的缺点，

於是问题一个接著一个发生，

你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，

有人说爱情就像在捡石头，

总想捡到一个适合自己的，

但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？

*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?

其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，

或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，

但是记住人是有弹性的，

很多事情是可以改变的，

只要你有心、有勇气，

与其到处去捡未知的石头，

还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？

很多人以为是因为感情淡了，

所以人才会变得懒惰。

错！

其实是人先被惰性征服，

所以感情才会变淡的。

*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！

*听到了吗？明白了吗？

难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，

却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。

因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。

如果每个人都

懒得讲话、

懒得倾听、

懒得制造惊喜、

懒得温柔体贴，

那么夫妻或是情人之间，

又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？

所以请记住：

有活力的爱情，

是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，

谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！

* 有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，他的男朋友很不高兴的说：你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，我以後再也不会等你了！刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了，她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了

*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境；女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。

你体会到了吗？

*其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！

爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！

懂了吗？

当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。

那并不代表你会选择他。

*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。

但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，

你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。

*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。

可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。

假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？

其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。

或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，

但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？

所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！

他或许已经等你很久喽！

*当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。

所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。

如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

*所以请记住，

喝酒不要超过六分醉，

吃饭不要超过七分饱，

爱一个人不要超过八分

*那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？

我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！

*如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：

爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；

要道歉，也要道谢；

要认错，也要改错；

要体贴，也要体谅；

是接受，而不是忍受；

是宽容，而不是纵容；

是支持，而不是支配；

是慰问，而不是质问；

是倾诉，而不是控诉；

是难忘，而不是遗忘；

是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；

是为对方默默祈求，

而不是向对方诸多要求；

可以浪漫，但不要浪费；

可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

source by rayson =)

READ and THINK bout it..

2008-10-15T00:04:00.000-07:00

when we're traveling in our journey of life, do u remember those warm hands that were once offered to u?

the very 1st day when we breathed in the fresh air in this wonderful world, did u know who brought us here?

the very 1st day when we cried because we're hungry, we cried because we're thirsty, we cried because we're tired.. who did we lie on and patted with warmth and love?

the very 1st day when we learned how to stand up, how to walk.. whose hands that always supported us as the foundation of security and confidence?

the very 1st day when we fall down from our mistake, who offered us lights and hopes.. and a pair of hands that made us to believe in nothing is impossible?

the very 1st day when we were brought to the kindergarden, feeling nervous and scare,who held ur hand and explored together ur very 1st day of socializing?

the very 1st day when we started to feel curious about the world, with all those silly questions that we had, who answered them patiently and taught u everything they know?

the very 1st day when we finished schooling and who were ur loyal listeners that smiled back at u when u told them funny moments at school?

the very 1st day when disappointments and hopeless haunted us,who broke the twlight and told us :" it's ok,try again.."??

the very 1st day when we broke up with our 1st love, who sat beside us and lent us their ears on our complainments.. our dissatisfaction... and our frustration?

the very 1st day when we graduated, who were them who smiled proudly when we're holding bunches of flowers and walked around wearing graduation robes?

the very 1st day when we found a new job, who kept saying ''don do tis'',''don do tat''.. who were the one who always welcomed us home after a hard day work with a broad smile and delicious dinner on the table?

the very 1st day when we were found our soulmates and married.. who were the one that smiled the most and cried the most throughout our marriages? who were the one that told us alot of things at the night before the marriages?

the very 1st day when we had our house with our own families, who were the one that always called us and asked us to go home for dinner together?

"maybe next time"
"i'm quite bz with my work"

and then the call's hanged up.. u might forget about tis small request by the caller.. but on the other side, the caller might slowly put down the phone and walks to the dining table that has ur favourite dishes and taking dinner alone..

whenever there are festivals or holidays, they always look outside the window, hoping that they can see their lovely sons or daughters waving at them joyfully..

whenever they go out for a walk and see the children playing happily, they will always remember the faces of their loving youngsters when they are running around the field playing with kites.

whenever they're sick, and u call them up, they will always say that "i'm fine" or "i'm alright" but actually they're not.. every night when it's cold, they shiver but no one help them to cover the bed sheet.. it's because they're BUSY..

when they ask u questions repeatly, u respond like they're annoying and they are bugging ur life.. but do u know? u ask silly questions repeatly to them also when u're young and naive..

now they're sick, the medication fees are extremely high and u get pissed of it.. sayin that u're wasting money on something that is worthless.. but do u know? they nvr feel tat way when they raise u up..

now ask ur conscienceness..
so far, what have u done to them?

if u know who are ''THEM''..

心动不如行动~

cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerss guys =)

TaGGEd by neville and rizal..zzz =.=

2008-10-10T08:51:00.000-07:00

THE SELF
[01] Name: Tan Yu Shyen
[02] Nickname: ah tan, james,dai kao and even leng zai[erhem=.=]
[03] Married: nope..
[04] Zodiac Sign: Virgo
[05] Gender: male
[06] Age: 18
[07] High School: SMK Seri Ampang aka ARBS
[08] College: Tunku Abdul Rahman College
[09] Height: 186cm
[10] Weight: 84kg (i'm thinner dy!! fulamak~~)
[11] Do you like yourself: yup.. starting to admire myself (wakaka 自恋狂 xD)
[12] Piercings: never, it's like abusing my ownself= =
[13] Right or left: for piercing or..
[14] Are you a freak : err... pls define freak.. not in general form of coz[lol charle yang^^]
[15] Hair: black
[16] Skin: ehmm.. sportman's colour??
[17] Allergic: dust!! sneeze all the way if i get contact wif it=.=
[18] What are you doing now: filling up the tag + listening to jay's songs + msn.. lol..
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: snooring like a pig la duh~~
[20] What will you do 10 years later: pursuing my dream as a successful psychologist =)

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: yup..
[22] Siblings (included you): tiga..
[23] Eldest: my big big steady bro ^^
[24] Youngest: james tan la :P
[25] Love/hate your family: love them alot.. they're the pillars of my soul.. priority no.1 =)

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: not anymore =)
[27] If yes, who is he/she: once a girl..
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: some1 who's really treat the relationship with passion and commitment..
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 1
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): no idea.. how do u define ''woo'' 1st???
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): errr... always kena shocked by leng lui..is it counted??
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: single now =)
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: err.. accidently raise up the tone??
[34] Ever argue with your other half: ex half yes... haha..
[35] You with your other half since: tak da.. habis dah..
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: i'll let u decide it :P
[37] Reasons you love your other half: do i hv to answer a question without answer? haha..
[38] You and your other half in which stage: again..
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: woo woo woo=.=
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: actually did think b4.. but i was too naive back then.. helo, nt yet financially stable la~ sendiri pun tak cukup makan :P

THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: HEI SEI ANDOH.. [my "青梅竹马"] haha..
[42] Your first enemy: hmmm.. actually is yu han academically, but he's a god where im a human.. cant fight at all.. haha.. no offence bro ^^
[43] The friend you love the most: can i add a ''s'' to friend? coz i love my fren EQUALLY=)
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1only):pessimistic side of myself
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: omg.. hard to answer tis, i dun wanna witness cat-fight le!!
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: can i count myself in?? haha.. my buddy jason ong ;) diet bro.. diet!!
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: hmm.. hatred comes only if u care alot bout that particular person.. so..
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: ppl who is smarter than me[yhan!!], more handsome than me[jason!!!].. haha.. mayb those who are childish in some ways =)
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: jz a while.. u know.. teenagers' puppy loves.. haha..
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope..
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: erhmm..usually i'll get offended but now i hope to settle the issue rationally.. learning in progress ~
[52] If your friend betray you: same..try my best to deal it rationally..
[53] If your friend woo your lover: LOL..
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: depends which leng luis they are.. haha..
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: analyse it.. double confirm with my feeling.. no more rushing !!

THE STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: are u kidding me?? i'm the naughty-est in the class.. EVER.. haha..
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: primary n second school:seldom/ college:always [mahal le the fees :X]
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: i love all those who teach sincerely.. seriously..
[59] Always late to school/college: 1/1000.. i'm punctual =) sometimes.. haha..
[60] Your class:proud to present -> DCL1 L3
[61] You love your seniors: they're nice.. but i jz respect them =)
[62] Senior who you love the most: cornas my bro!! haha.. he helps me alot..
[63] Your classmates good/bad: omg.. they're insane.. let me intro andrew to u.. hahahaha..
[64] Excellent result classmate: every1 is potential to be.. didi.. dun accuse ppl dy :P
[65] Laziest classmate: semua pun lazy la.. haha.. dun act noble la.. hahaha...

THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: smartness in handling life is far more convincing for me..
[67] Stupid people: those who dont appreciate their lifes.. wat a waste =/
[68] Good looking people: tough question.. coz i might be writing ME.. haha.. nah.. everyone's good looking.. [quote from jase n neville] :P
[69] Ugly people: physically? nah!! we're blessed =)
[70] Funny people: lol my fren travis.. actually i think are those who ''can spin their brain v fast''
[71] Cute people: andrew!!!??? hahaha...
[72] Bad people: hmm.. those who are completly controlled by ID[psychodynamic theory]??
[73] Honest people: hmmm.... hard to find nowadays..
[74] Acting people: actorsssss??? hahaha...
[75] You are what kind of people: a unique 1.. no word can used to describe everyone =)

THE PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes of coz..
[77] Hugs or kisses: i'm greedy.. haha.. depends actually..
[78] Shorter or taller: walao.. i cant imagine those who r taller than me..
[79] hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous la..
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: =.=.. nev u're right.. weird..
[81] Listener or talker: talker =)
[82] Romantic or rich: romantic.
[83] Good husband or Good Father: omg=.=...

THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: once i'm financially stable=)
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 3 actually.. haha..
[86] Career: Psychologist or lecturer.. sweet^^
[87] Salary: hmm.. the higher the better la of coz.. haha..
[88] Retirement age: too far to think about..
[89] Properties value: 10 houses like scen.. haha... the more the better.. jz being realistic =)
[90] Wishes: world no war.. no more pollution.. no more crimes.. no more pirated DVDS!!! haha..

THE VICTIMS
[91] Jason ONG!!! wakaka
[92] Rayson!! sudah free kan??
[93] Sebastian.. :P
[94] XIOW WEI!! u hv to... haha..
[95] suet mei.. u're next.. haha..
[96] yu han... no escape for u too.. haha..
[97] kelvin loh... tis is a chance for ur reincarnation of ur blog :D
[98] siew lee..... ... i know u're reading ~~
[99] tell cally also.. haha.. :P
[100] sim yee??? most free person [after me] in L3

cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeers =)

theoretical perspectives in social psychology

2008-10-08T05:24:00.000-07:00

today was my 1st lecture class of social psychology.. the introduction of this subject attracted me bcoz of the subtopics..

i can still remember one part of today lecture that is the short introduction of the social psychology theories..

it does make sense when i try to relate the theories with the events that we witness,hear about and participate during daily routine..

for example: ROLE THEORY... from wat i can recall, everyone is the society plays a significant role at certain time.. for example, me as a teenager plays the role as a college student when i m attending a lecture class; after the class, i hang out wif my frens and now my role changes from a college student to a peer to my frens.. etc etc etc..

at tis point, my behavior changes accordingly to the role tat i m practising that is frm a college student to a peer to my frens.. when we participate different roles, our structure of cognitives,pattern of actions and reflected behaviors will be different at the same time..

after that there's another theory which is known as REINFORCEMENT THEORY.. tis particular theory is quite similiar to the operant conditioning that i learned during my psychology.. it is something like law of effect from the view of psychology.. but from the view of social psychology, this theory is about the happening of a behavior for the sake of getting rewards or compliments.

for example, why do we go for college? why do we sit inside the lecture halls for several hours staring at the hyperactive lecturer infront of us?

the reason is simple: we attempt to full-fill our credit hours and get our attendances satisfied. some might argue that they attend the subject bcoz of their interests towards the subject or they intend to know more about that particular subject..

haha.. u're right but i m not wrong either.. haha, theory is about assumption so there is no exact so called correct statement of it.. this is social psychology about.. we hv our own sense of perception. tis lead to another theory called cognitive theory..

cognitive aka thinking for ur information.. according to my understanding of this theory, our behaviour is dominated by the structure of our cognitive..

in short, how we think=how we behave..

we have our own judgement and belief system which contribute to the action that we'll take.. so if one day u notice that u hv some conflicts wif the other parties, calm down and be rational.. coz we know, different people have different belief systems.. we shouldnt be too dominant and squeeze our thought into their cylinders.. hv some respects and be opened.. if they cant accept ur belief then it's ok.. u're not wrong neither do he is..

so tat's some infos about cognitive theory la.. still have some theories to share but my understanding isnt that deep yet.. haha, look like my post will be stopping here..

yup.. i know it's a boring post.. wat to do..
sometime.. theories are my favourites..

cheeeeerss =)

everything's back on track..

2008-10-02T11:13:00.000-07:00

a fairytale that stays for 2months finally meets its ending.. everything is back to its track and yes.. the earth will continue to spin at its speed and direction..

we need the determination to carry the fate on our shoulders and the strength to put it down where it belongs.. sometimes the things that we see physically isnt what we understand fully about it..

what we see doesnt mean what we know,
what we know doesnt mean what we understand
and..
what we understand d0esnt mean what we see..

a quote from mr phillip=)

sometimes life is unfair for those who try; sometimes life is cruel for those who care; but sometimes ..

life is amazingly interesting..

we do not know wat will happen to us in the future.. what we should concern about is now and present.. the past is passed and marked as history behind our shadow.. so y let traumatic memories to hunt ur ass??

be strong.. be tough.. i know what james tan will do if he's asked to think rationally.. james tan, a name that will not be challenged easily by fate.. that is wat i understand about him..

but in reality.. can he really be tat calm?? can he really be that rational??

glad to say that.. he's trying to be the claimed one.. he's trying to outrage his limit in emotion control.. and yes.. he tries..

and he'll not allow himself to fail his frens' hopes.. family's expectation... and his aim.. to be a successful psychologist..

i believe in his effort..

to be strong and dominate his own future from his fate..
i know..

because i'm james tan...

2008-09-15T08:18:00.000-07:00

the feeling of emptiness..
creeping inside me..again..

emo side of me reincarnates again as the side effect of being negatively..
jz hv to bear tis for..
2 more days..

then it's over...

i hope..
praying..

3X/\m!!

2008-09-09T06:07:00.000-07:00

it's my 3rd day of final's today.. 3 more subjects and then i'm done!!!! yes.. i'm DONE!!! haha..

hmm.. for 3 subjects that i did.. so far so good la.. cant put too much of expectation also but wat past is passed.. now focusing in my next 3 more subjects.. hopefully i can do well =)

and my temper is getting worse lately.. accidently, i ter-offence alot of ppl and YES.. i know about it.. and i wan to control about it[theorically is easier than pratically= =].. haih.. really scare that i'll repeat my foolish manner again n ter-shoot other ppl..

it's really swt bcoz i'm studying counselling/psychology and my temper is that sux.. i love my course but my temper... really... kinda opposite of it's nature la wei..

seriously hope that i'll able to control my temper.. bcoz i know that it'll only bring me cons and no pros at all..

well.. back to reality~~

LET'S READY FOR EXAM!! kakaka.

p/s: sry for the ''water'' and thank you for ur kfc,i enjoy alot although we hv to wait for 1hr++ :)

deep thought..

2008-08-28T08:41:00.000-07:00

thinking too far and thinking too much.. are they the same? i am taught to have wide vision in certain particular subject especially in planning or analyzing progress.. but now i m confused by the knowledge that i have been learning it since i am exposed to leadership. neither progress nor plan that confuse me. but something which is more dramatic, more confusing and yet more troublesome.. sometimes i'll ask myself..

m i forecasting too far?
m i thinking too much?
m i worrying things that are yet to happen too much?

although i know all the answers are yes.. but i can hardly stop myself from thinking so deep until i can imagine the worst scenario that can happen for this case.. mayb i have put a lot of effort in this case and yes i really try my best to give the best that i can contribute.. i do admit that i m one extremely sensitive person.. n to be able to control my wild imagination and deep thinking.. i really need to think out of the box,to think from a whole different angle.. sincerely i jz wish that my sensitivity will not create any impact to my problem.. i jz hope that my excess worry will be understand..

to change someone or to improve someone?? changing or improving some1 externally is easy frm root hair until his toes.. but wat about changing or improving some1 frm within-personality? theorically it is easy and simple but when we practise it.. it's tough..challenging but it's not impossible.. as long as we work hard, have faith,confidence,trust and determination.. i believe that we can improve our personality rather than changing it entirely..

smile and the world will smile back at u.. no matter wat happen, we shouldnt let our smile fade away..we still have to live our lifes no matter how happy or sad u are.. the earth will not stop spinning although u lose everything..u hate all the ppl around u.. so my opinion: y live a life with sorrow when u can live the same life with joy and happiness?? miracles and unexpected events come if we're being positive..

why wry things that are yet to happen? why care too much about the person that u dislike the most? why behave under the influence of sorrow? so if u hv the chance to live again.. will u choose to live happily or sadly?? it's all in ur hand..

life is difficult and easy at the same time..so if we treat things easily,do things step by step,positive thinking and smile at the shadow..i'm sure the world will be a better place to live in.. so pls.. dun hate urself if u think u're not good.. dun be angry of urself if u behave not like urself.. dun get frustrated of others bcoz it'll only bring harm to u.. not the person that frustrates u.. we jz hv to work tis together.. solve the problem together..i know some1 is willing to share tears and wounds with u.. some1 is always there for u.. supporting u.. guarding u.. like the bright star that always shines upon u..

be hpy..
live freely..
enjoy ur life..
and smile always..

short post with a photo :D

2008-08-24T07:37:00.000-07:00

helo every1, i'm back again just to do a short update and upload some photos for this post.. seriously i kinda lose some inspiration in updating the blog dy la.. haha, mayb i'm too lazy :D

well guys,1 more week then i'll be having final dy.. early of sept(which is my month of birthday->remember!!!!<-) till 18th if i m not mistaken..

still i havent cover all the chapters and i'm very very scare of hubungan etnik bcoz i dun even know wat,where,how to study it.. haih.. sien..

then.. my co-q is finished and finally no need to wake up early to go for training dy.. so i'll hv enough of sleep n i can bath!!! haha.. usually i dun bath(no bathroom ma:P) after co-q until 8pm++..

guitar..? well, i din touch it for a month dy.. bcoz i m pretty bz with a leng lui so if my guitar wan blame then go n blame her la.. haha..

of coz, i do finish canon in D for my piano.. hahaaha.. 5music sheets n i finish them for 95% dy.. now i need to control my tempo and fingering to reach tat 99%.. 1% will be evaluated by my leng lui :D!!

ermm.. all the assignments are done and i receive the scores for them.. quite satisfy about them and haha.. thanks to my group members, our psychology assignment about a theory is being used by the lecturer for some purposes.. really hpy about it.. and kinda proud although i contribute not so much =P

after that.. my life is becoming more n more hectic with the exist of this leng lui.. haih.. dunno how to say but my hectic life brings me excitements and sweet memories.. kinda x logic isnt it? haha.. here she is.. the LENG LUI that is one part of my life also :)

ermm... yes, this is the leng lui(in her original form--pigpig) that i mentioned :D

well, i know it's abit scary about this photo.. but wat to do, she's 1 of my parts of my life so.. we hv to bear about it la.. kasi chance abit ma.. haha..

well, sem break's coming soon and if any1 out there wants to find part-time job.. pls tell me ah.. seriously i need to earn more $ to satisfy some1's stomach.. susah betul =/..

well.. that's for tis post.. wish me luck for my FINAL!!!

FINAL!!! HERE I COME~~~~~~~~~~~~
WAHAHAHHA~~~

lazy ass is rowing back :D

2008-07-29T15:58:00.000-07:00

seriously i'm v lazy to update my blog dy.. well, i'll jz simply make some short lists.. y? coz i'm lazy le :D!!

mid term is finished!! hoorayyy.. and now.. waiting for the arrival of final year exam.. overall of the exam, the sux-est sub i did is my intro to psychology.. i was so blur during that time.. plus my revision was done in the eleventh hour le.. haha.. tis is the result of being lazy.. hopefully i'll not repeat the same mistake for my final=.=

i did...
went to OO night,
went to japenese house,
went to bon odori in shah alam,
went for charity in PJ,
finish my assignments and presentation :) !!
finish my mid term.. (swt)
kao dim my oral test with my class's philosopher=)
watch some movies which i usually cant find any1 to go with (wa, bangga :D)..
play back basketball and now getting rdy for the competition..
learning guitar from my fren (finish 彩虹 /rainbow by Jay) but sadly i rarely play piano dy =/

photos are available in my frenster.. so if u hv some time, then mayb u can go there n look look ??? if and only if la ^^
everything's here guys =)

then i've been spending time with some1 special lately.. haha.. i'll uppdate u guys if everything is stable dy =)
a hint : it's a she.. :P

well.. might be updating my blog.. if there's anything special la.. my life is simple.. unlike some1 like rayson laaaaaaaa.. hor ??? hahaha..

2008-06-23T18:06:00.000-07:00

Finally updated!!

haha guys,
finally i'm back to update my blog dy.. man, i'm so bz lately(as if) these few weeks.. college life is really as fun as i can imagine.. so let's see what m i doing for the past few weeks..

Assignments - (it's essential, u know :D)

-Hubungan Etnik (done)
-intro to IT practical x3 (done)
-intro to counselling (done)
-english presentation(done)

To do list :
-intro to IT(group assignment..)
-intro to counselling ( presentation)

well, i guess i hv 2 more assignments (so far it is).. ganbateh ganbateh !!

next, wat had i do lately..

-charity work as in volunteer in PJ.
-learn piano by myself (eyes on me)
-revision for mid term exam (rarely :P)

wat will i do in the coming few weeks...

-going for OO night.. (if i find my ticket back.. dam!! = =)
-learn guitar BACK from a pro guitarist XD (yhan wan tuner ? )
-japanese house trip in seremban..
-mid term exam for tamadun.. sien=.=
-master 3 more piano songs..
-back for basketball.. cant wait for it !!

errr.. so far tis is wat i m planning la.. kinda boring now.. since nth special happen lately.. well, at least better than no updates rite ???

all the best guys =)

Not worth it..

2008-06-05T16:56:00.000-07:00

petrol naik!!!!
electric naik!!!

what's next??

dam la, since a few years ago, alot of things are raised in term of price already.. i can still remember last time my mom only have to pay rm30 for a full-tank [honda's] but now.. rm60 also not enough le.. siaoz..

i can forecast that after petrol naik.. transportation naik.. then food naik.. electric naik.. water naik juga.. wtf la.. wat also naik nowadays..

frankly.. why is malaysia government raising the price of the petrol? i thought we malaysia is 1 of the petrol-industrial country? we have ''alot'' of petrol near our country isnt it? since the world is demanding for petrol.. shouldnt we be richer by selling the petrol to other countries? if no then where the hell our petrol go? dun tell me, they use all for us? we hv hydroelectric dam as electric generator also.. why is the electric also naik although we have other sources of electric generators?

it's simply.. they wan to earn our $ and masuk into their own pocket.. oh no, i'm not being judgmental.. so dun sue me for being insulting.. it's our common sense.. these few years, the petrol price raised like shit but i din see any improvement we got from the government..

road are fulled of holes[yes i meant hole]..
the efficiency of the government staff is bloody slow..
bla bla bla..

i got too much to be said but it's just unfair for we citizen to pay extra $ for nothing.. if u say petronas is rugi-ing.. then show us the proof la.. show us what and where u rugi ur $ to.. or perhaps i can say it have been eaten by some ppl?

i know the post is quite offending.. but hey, lately there are alot of protest about certain issues that we citizen that are not satisfy with.. but what do they do? denying the responsibility and saying :"okok, we'll settle it in no time, please give us some time"

HEY! if u're truly a leader, then settle ur responsibility asap la.. wth u delay it for? u know the more time u're taking, the more $ we lost which we pay for the tax.. we pay tax slow, u saman us.. but if u do ur thing slow, wat can we do?

it's simply unfair la!! i thought some1 promise us this and that during the election.. come out n shake hand wif ppl then ask for voting.. after that, wat u did? cakap hebat-hebat, buat lambat-lambat..

seriously, i'm disappointed with malaysia nowadays.. we got petrol, brunei got petrol.. but their country is far more organized than us.. dun dream about the vision of 2020.. it's completely rubbish and not realistic at all.. if u cant even do the basic things like confronting the citizen n give us fair a treatment.. then forget about it.. i dun think tis vision can be achieved.. measure the cloth before u try to wear it..

p/s: anything tat i wrote is not politically offended.. it's just a feeling of a citizen. if u sue me for expressing my own opinion, then i dunno wth is ''kebebasan bersuara'' that i learned already..

take care then malaysia..

End of Orientation week

2008-05-23T06:26:00.000-07:00

so called 'end of orientation week' but then too lazy to go for tomolo which only has bastketball 3 on 3 and futsal competition.. so decide to ponteng for tomolo xD

well guys,
for ur information, i'm taking diploma in social science[counseling] in tarc. yes yes, i know..it's kinda weird for a person like me to take such ''soft'' course whereas almost 70% of my frens thought me--- james tan will be taking engineering courses but wat to do la, i takut kepada those super complicated formulas la..

ok, my course has around 90+ ppl [yeap it's kinda little if compare wif accounting/QS] but nvm la.. the competition among us is lesser if compare wif the other courses.. then i hv been selected by the fellow coursemates as the CR[course representative] for 2008/2009.. and the VCR[Vice Course Representative] is an interesting guy and he's v friendly for sure.. hopefully we can cooperate together la..

well..
life's getting tougher when me n the VCR were assigned for some ''warm-up'' tasks.. since it's P&C so i guess i better diam diam abit la.. haha..

wow, my way of blogging is getting boring.. hopefully i wont cause anyone feel sleepy bcoz of my post xD

ahhh.. joined music society and CPU[Counselling and Placement Unit].. i think i'm goin to continue learning my music instrument in piano/keyboard..

somemore some of my frens asked/promoted/recommended me to join the OO night which is specially for talented leng zai n leng lui only.. come on la.. u serious o not.. james tan in a beauty contest show??? walao.. i cant me doing a cat-walk xD!!! haha.. mayb after my plastic surgery la.. haha..

then...

my coursemates r cool and friendly.. received quite alot of congratz msg when i was chosen as the CR.. thanks for the congratz o ^^ then in now for the seniors part.. i heard that some of my frens were bullied in an indirectly way by their seniors but in my case.. i can say for those seniors that i hv met in these few days.. they're all v v v v v friendly and always in the mode where they're willing to help u whenever u hv any problem.. i learned so much of things from them especially my big bro cornas.. haha.. he's been teaching me as i make him as my tutor as a CR coz he's the CR for 2007/2008 also..

of coz i heard bout some 1st comments from some of my seniors...

(I) the 1st impression from my seniors..

well, i was called at the 1st day of the orientation day to do a short introduction about myself.. due to some inquiries, i stressed out my point as my explanation was doubted at tat day.. so after tat day, one 1 of seniors told me bout the ''1st impression'' to me..

''i'm dominant''

hmm, kinda blur in the 1st place but then my senior explained it tat it's like dominating my own point of view without referring to the consequences that will happened.. or in another word.. kinda 主见.. haha, mayb i was trained to be some1 who must had his mind set just for his own trust/believe/thoughts/opinions.. according to them:it's quite danger coz it might causes some unsatisfying feeling from my coursemates.. aiyks.. look like i need some times to tolerate abit.. i admit i'm a stubborn person XP

(II)the 1st impression from my coursemates..

ahhh, i was shocked when i was told by my seniors.. according to them, some of my coursemates thinks that i look fierce until some of them scare to approach me.. wasai, m i tat scary?? frankly..i had been told several times dy.. 1st it's my fren frm the fairs.. 2nd it's my frens frm driving exam..now this.. aikys.. do i really look tat fierce? DO I??? cham cham cham.. plastic surgery perhaps? haha.. well, sry la if i scare any1 wif my ''fierce'' face, i'm v frenly 1 for ur information.. haha..

so far tat's my orientation week la.. oh oh, b4 tat, there r leng luis in my course.. haha, so no doubt tat tarc is fulled of leng lui n leng zai? haha.. till now i still cant scan any extremely ''leng zai''.. mayb my scanner is fixed for leng lui only? haha..

anyway, last congrats for all of my frens that hv started their college life.. for those who havent, wait patiently n go find a work instead of decaying urself at home la.. hor gilagila XP.. haha..

p/s: a website which is specially made for TARC counselling course.. http://tarccounselling.multiply.com :) visit it when u're free then ^^

2008-05-21T06:01:00.001-07:00

well guys,
i'm having an orientation week in this week..
so might be kinda bz..
will be updating when i'm free =)

P/S: congrats to Sebastian for becoming the Vice Course Representative for PR.. all the best mate =)

TAG by Sebastian

2008-05-12T18:27:00.000-07:00

1)What is/are the most important thing/s in your life?

-Family
-Loved one
-Friend
-my desktop !!!
-basketball~~

2)Will you consider a sexual relationship before marriage?

it depends actually.. maybe yes and maybe no.. but i'll respect my soulmate's decision in priority..

3)Do you drink?
Nope, i dun drink & smoke.. wat a good boy xP

4)What is the latest gadget that you own?
a mp4 that i bought from pc fair :D

5)Who did you mostly test yesterday?
hmmm.. not so sure bout this question = =

6)How old are you& are you a virgin?
goin to 18 in september.. duh.. gf pun tak da, mestilah virgin XD

7)What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?

Secret Recipe's cheese cake n black pepper lamb pie :D!! hot hot hot..

8)Where do you wish to get married?
hmmm.. never think of this before.. if i can afford it, i think i'll enchant my mariage with quality but not with venue..

9)how old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?

around 20+?? i'm so young la wei :P

10)How many kids do you want?
3 maybe..

11)Are you in love with someone ?
currently no, who knows wat will happen in the coming days..

12)Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Nando in maluri.. freaking hot la the spices. my favourite XD!!!

13)Name the latest book that you bought?

Add math's reference book XD????

14)What is your full name?
Tan Yu Shyen

15)Do you believe in GOD?
yup, i'm a Buddhist and i believe in karma 1. :D

16)Name the people that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
jay chou in person..
steven chow..
rainie yang for the 2nd time :P..
SHE actually.. haha.. wanna c how cute is Hebe only ^^

17) Christina or Britney?
neither... LOL=,=

18)Do you do your laundry?
nope.. i'm a lazy bump tat dun do housework.. my only task in my home is to clean up my own bedroom.. leisure isnt it XD??

19)The most exciting place you want to go
redang/tioman.. lol.. or japan perhaps..

20) Are u in a relationship?
nope.. single yet available.. haha =>

21)Hugs or Kisses?
both??? i'm greedy..

22) Single or Attached?
single but attached to my desktop.. muak muak :D

23)Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
Sebastian::
-pro choreography..
-straight-forward
-sensitive XD
-emo guy
-like chelsea?

8 things I said too often:
-diao
-deng
-walao
-shit
-wasai
-dude
-sien
-d*u?? haha.. but in a ''polite way''

8 songs I could listen over and over again:

听妈妈的话-jay chou
我不配-jay chou
情歌王 ^^
classical music as in piano n violin..
right here waiting.. i love the piano...
Home [gimme 5 jay XD]
canon in D.. [love it so much :D]
lemon tree... ahaha.. lame lame la wei :D

8 Things I learned last year:
guitar..
piano..
wushu..
how to accept failure..
how to blog.. LOLx..
basketball coaching and referring..
how to include myself in an organizing team..
how to improve my english grammar.. thanks to murugan ^^

8 people to tag
yhan,
rayson,
xiow wei,
poh guan,
haithal,

i can only think of 5 person for now.. haha.. so better finish it ^^

METALTECH Fair 2008

2008-05-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

haha guys, i'm done wif my fair dy.. so now i'll be using some photos as in elaboration of this post la.. kinda tired coz of the work..

1st day:

2nd day:

3rd day:

last day for the setup b4 the fair starts :)

well, i took quite a little photos only due to my multiply tasks that i hv to finish during the setup.. the photos i took r mostly in the hall that i was assigned to coordinate it.. there's still 3 more halls which were located other place in PWTC.. wat a shame that i couldnt take the photos :(

here's 1 of the function that i ''attended'' but actually, i was assigned[again] to jaga the counter[it means OT] till 11pm+..

the moment before the function starts..^^

too bad i couldnt take the photos when every1 gathered there.. meant i became a ''ticket collector'' in the entrance as 400+ exhibitor stood infront of me n my partner Braine waiting for the time to reach sharp at 7..

so, let's skip all these n jump to another photo..michael jackson made in malaysia 1..

i hv these few photos of them only.. the red 1 looks jz like michael jackson u know? he's a chinese but his look+hair style+dancing skills r quite similiar to the real 1...

it's kinda tired now.. i'll update this post once i rejuvenate myself :P

thanks for viewing.. if u did- -

2008-05-01T04:29:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT~~

wat to say now..
goin to start work again starting tomolo till 11th of May.. haha, my life is soooooo interesting whereas i can finally experienced the feeling of being an owl..

went out wif fren yesterday.. had pillow's talk[or men's talk according to Sebastian], then went to mamat n watched Chelsea vs Liverpool.. actually i din finish it.. i watched it till half time then go sorok at jay's car n sleep..

man, i really cant stand the feeling of becoming an owl.. minor migrain kept on stabbing me frm the back during the outing.. zz..

slept for half an hour then jay hantar me home.. [really thanks to my buddy for sending me home although he's tired like sh*t dy]

then slept again till noon.. and hv breakfast+lunch at the same time..

well, tomolo will be working..till 11th.. man, gonna miss the potluck for my 2 of my best malay buddies : ariffin and sulaiman la.. 1 of them r goin to perlis and another 1 is goin to johor.. both of them r accepted into matriculation dy.. kinda jealous T T haha..

b4 i end the post, my next fair tat i'll be working in is the metaltech fair in PWTC.. i heard tat i'll be assigned as the floor coordinator.. according to my lung-ful fren, they say tis job sux..

aaa=,= how to respond.. mayb it'll b wayyyy too burden for me also.. but i'll try tat position if i m really assigned to it.. never try never know isnt it?

hopefully i wont stress to die bcoz of the job la..

p/s: to sebastian,

chill dude, although my words r sharp and v v sarcastic.. jz to let ur small small heart know tat it's jz the lame jokes we hv among us XD hopefully u'll learn to accept it la.. coz i also kena bom by those lung-ful fren.. some more always 5vs1 or 4 vs1.. haha.. it's life man.. live it or leave it :P..

2008-04-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

RELIEF..

finally, i'm done wif my work in DSA[Defence Service Asia] fair.. i work from 15th until 24th.. and now finally everything is over now..

being a typist in DSA isnt tat ec as u think.. u'll be facing alot of obstacles and challenges especially when it relates to ur boss..

so,
i kena marah frm the 1st day i work until the last day i work in this fair.. but sometimes i also kena marah secara sewenang-wenangnya u know? 75% is not my fault but still, i kena from them..

haih.. my life there is quite cham in the 1st few days.. after tat, i m paralysis by the scolding already.. although the unsatisfying feeling still roar inside me, but still my boss is still my boss.. i still fake up a smile and continue my work although i kena by them numerously..

it's life man!!!..

well,
i'll be posting up alot of photos sooner..
hv to wait for mr ONG YU HAN to send me all the photos..

so..
ONG YU HAN aka GILAGILA..
pls send me my photos asap when u read this post xP!!

2008-04-10T08:56:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!!

she's here..
the one tat i worked so hard just to get her..

i can still remember her voice..
her firm and touching voice,
that touches my heart ever since i saw her..
her sweet melody that,
still echoes inside my heart although i jz seen her last month..

the only one that touches my heart so deeply
that i even dream of her every single night..
i dream of being with her..
side by side..
watching the waves splashing against the hard rock..

we glance each other while we remain silent..
silence is enough,
so that we'll enjoy this precious moment without any disturbance..
appreciation towards each other is uncountable when i look at her..
satisfaction and ego raise at the same time as i hold her tightly..

....................................

there she is..
stood there patiently..
ignoring the aura of her prettiness as the light reflects..
this is the highest honor of a perfectionist..

haha..
she's my new gf dy..
going to enjoy my new moment wif her !! XD

p/s: going to work frm 11th-24th.. SYOK !!

the wind beside ur ear..

2008-04-06T19:05:00.001-07:00

yesterday is a history;

tomorrow is a mystery;

today is a gift..

so guys !! how well do u appreciate ur day? do u spend them wisely? or jz hanging around, do nth and hope tat the day will end up faster?

here's some quotes that can be used as ur guideline of ur life if ur life is empty.

every single minute we waste can be used to do something beneficially.
never wait until the last minute to finish a task tat's suppose to be finished at the early stage.
never drag the task tat is given to u until the last minute.
never complain tat the time given is not enough, as we should b the 1 tat control the time but not the time tat control us, plan wisely.

1st step is always the hardest step to start with.
always think about the consequences before u act.
be responsible on what u did and take full-responsibility on it.
always think out of the box, trapping at the corner will b nth more but suffer.
appreciate ppl around as u will regret when they're out of ur sight.

sign, i m becoming older and older as i keep on writing down all these quotes.. as yhan said:"life is a mystery to live in,not a problem to be solved''[change abit xD] so we should always appreciate our life by leading a our life tat matter[JAY'S !!]

never consider as ur life is a troublesome scenario, treat life casually as life is just bubble =)

still, i havent receive my TARC letter=,=....

p/s: who want to watch ''L change the world'' wif me??????? dam desperate for it now.... arghhh ><"

ACCEPTED.......finally T.T

2008-04-05T06:31:00.000-07:00

guys guys..
i'm goin to work in PC Fair next week[11th,12th,13th] as the promoter for MTECH..

so come and support me :D .. since it's my 1st time working in PC Fair..

for ur information, MTECH sells all kinds of hardware.. so if u guys r interested in upgrading ur pc, drop by and i'll try to help u la..

the price.. it's quite reasonable so i think it wont cause any problem rite?

well, these few days been busy having out wif my frens.. since they're complaining that i'm heavy-ing colour and always ffk =.=.. LOL, it's ok then.. i know they always jealous me 1.. hahaha.. chill guys.. well, i'll try my best to accompany u all before we start our college life then..

well, kinda tired today.. going to sleep soon as tomolo morning i hv to wake up to see my surprize xD !! wat's the surprize?

TO BE CONTINUED.. :D

2008-03-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

it's boring nowadays.
nothing to do..
now i feel more relieved,
been suffering for love sick last few weeks[paiseh =X]..
now,
everything's back to normal..

i'm proud to b myself back again xD

well, jz submitted my form to TARC..
so i might becoming a TARCian ?

beside tat, i need a part-time job so badly..
jz applied for the job as the promoter of maxis broadband during PC fair..
3 days..
rm50 as basic..
rm30 for every successful sale =)

hopefully i can get the job la..
it lasts for 3 days only =)

after tat,i might be getting a new surprize!!

wait more for it :D

2008-03-24T01:47:00.000-07:00

FINALLY...

i passed my JPJ driving test...
wahahhahaha.. [*evil laugh*]

i almoz failed my mounting.. bcoz of the dam car tat i was assigned by them.. but thank godness, i managed to cover everything xD!!!!

so freaking hpy now..
will be getting P license within 1 week..
SYOK!!

P/S: i m finding 1 1/2 month part time job.. any1 wanna go for job hunting? coz my college starts at may 2x.. ANY1"????????

Tag #1

2008-03-17T19:51:00.000-07:00

Tag #1

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Who is/are your all-time inspiration?
my parents..i learned alot of philosophies of life from them =)

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
no la of coz.. not yet hv gf xD if u find 1 for me, then ma can lo.. kaka..

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
Rayson-bcoz.. he's lame + some ''small clever'' la.. so we might enjoy our days there.. lol..

Yhan-although he's freaking boring.. but i need him to get me out from tat stupid island la.. since he's a walking scientific dictionary xD

NJayZ- i need his sense of humour.. his singing.. his hilarious acting to cure us from our ''boredness''.. haha ;p

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Japan.. i'm looking forward to meet some kawaii nippon girl !! haha..

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
i wish for more dreams xD!! hahaa..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yup... coz i see them several times d..

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my family..my frens.. and HER.. duh..

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
hmm.. 1st, save it in bank.. then learn jay to do investment.. then buy stuff for myself n my family.. then then..get a MyVi for myself[i love it alot xD] then.. go for traveling wif my family..

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
hmm.. i will when the time comes.. i wont repeat my same mistake anymore!!

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
NJayZ->open-minded,easy to go along wif,handsome xD!! hahaha..

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
neither too pretty nor too not pretty.. everything is about 1st sight and the rest is about my feeling towards her..

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
ppl who talk without using their brain..back-stabber.. and of coz, ppl tat use money without hesitation.. dam jit dou 1 them=,=

13. What is your ambition?
a useful person in the future who can take care of his family and owns a satisfying career =)

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
it depends.. really.. but if possible,point it out in a more polite way la of coz, so i'll realize wat did i do wrong ^

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
family is my main priority in my life.. then my soulmate.. then my frens..

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Nonono, i'm kiam siap type 1.. but i'll when i hv the mood XD

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
NJayZ- Music!!

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
my over-sensitive and my pessimistic thinking =/

19. Whats the last 2 shocking things you've seen or heard?
-my SPM result!! omg.. it really shocks my ass out = =
-she's going to a different college ... huhuhu

20. What do you wish to tell someone special to you if u have the chance?
i'm sry for wat i have done to u.. my unstable emotions have again leave a unforgiving mark in ur heart.. i'm too aggressive and i shouldn't have mentioned it out again.. how i wish i can see ur smile again before u're going for ur ns..

i am tagging :
1. rayson
2. suetmei
3. charleskey
4. michelle
5.Poh Guan

since quite a number of my frens were tagged by jay.. so,i'll b alittle bit more mercy la=)

dedicated to NS-er

2008-03-17T10:22:00.000-07:00

well, it's finally here.. 2nd batch of NS-er wil lbe going to their respective locations in jz few more hours..

man!! i'm really going to miss my frens.. especially her.. her camp is quite far.. somewhere near Sabah.. but i heard that she's going to come back early for her college..

wat a good news xD!!

although we're jz good good frens.. but i treat her more than tat :D [dun get it wrongly =X] now i'm jz hoping she'll still treat me as her good good fren after all the stupid stuffs i have done lately..

emo emo emo.. it engulfs me lately and thus reflect the immature side of me.. BUT, wat past is passed[i wonder tis sentence has any grammatical mistake o not]..

let's us

SEE FRONT FRONT,
FORGET BACK BACK..

LOL... my quote XD!!
hope u guys enjoy ur life there la.. always remember...

SAFETY 1st..
pls survive =/..

all the best!!

p/s: i m missing her =X

A lesson

2008-03-16T18:15:00.000-07:00

lately, i m hating myself.. i hv been trapping inside the box and keep on thinking of the worst consequences that i'll hv..

y m i so pessimist?
didnt i promise myself to be an optimist person? and now y m i suffering my own self and hurting the people around me ?

immature immature immature... i'm acting childish wif some naive thinking.. it's time to wake up from this nightmare.. time to face the real world maturely..

life has to be carried on no matter u're in a good mood or vice versa.. the time will not be paused even a 0.01 second bcoz of ur own problem..

as for an English saying " time and tide wait for no man"

y should i waste my time, thinking of the bad side and ignoring the philosophy that i have learned lately..

i'm jz too pessimist =/ ..
sry guys, i'll be better from now.. so no worries ^^

p/s: i cant wait to learn more bout myself in psychology !!

2008-03-15T07:34:00.000-07:00

few more days.. then she'll be going..

it's neither far nor near.. but in my heart, she's as far as i can ever imagine..

jz 3 months.. cant u survive without her? some more if she's in kl, u wont be seeing her often isnt it?

yes.. jz 3 months.. i dunno whether i can survive o not.. i know.. i wont be seeing her often even though she's in kl.. but i can still ask her out[although it never success before].. i can still sms her..[although she seldom replies me]..i can still sense her existence around me..

AH!!
cut all these craps.. y do i have to suffer all these traumas..i thought i told myself to let go of her? i thought i told myself to concentrate 100% in my new college life.. but y the hell m i keep on thinking of her? is it some soft of viruses? am i sick?

LOVE SICK.. i suppose.. tis is so lame.. blogging something tat is totally rubbish.. stuff tat no1 sees in this bloggy.. especially her..

rubbish
rubbish
rubbish!!

quotes from jay..
time is an antidote,or mayb i have taken the poison..

for sure, now i m poisoned..
time is the only antidote to cure it..

i really wish i can lead back my normal life...
by not thinking of her...anymore..

2008-03-12T18:45:00.000-07:00

woke up at 5am..
walked around my room for 2 hours..
slept again at 7am..

INSOMNIA?
it's called pre-result-taking-symptom.. i had it the day before PMR result was released 3 years ago..

so how's my SPM result?
kinda sux actually.. if possible, i hope not to talk about it.. what i can tell u is i fail none subject =)

went out the whole day ''celebrating''our joy and sorrow.. every1 did laugh but some of the laughters were quite fake.. such as..

ME?

i'm not acting emo or watever la.. jz the feeling of disappointed spoiled my mood tat day.. i had no longer the qualification to apply scholarship.. thus i would be wasting my family income jz to pay the stupid fees..

they said it's ok.. jz study well in college and strike for higher achievement.. i was relief but still could feel their burden in sponsoring me to study in college..

life still has to be carried on.. if u're letting this small matter to bug u.. how r u going to survive in big projects wif tans of pressure and risky disappointments that u might have?

she's going to a different college.. b4 tat, when she told me she might go to UTAR[which is the same wif me], i thought..god helps me.. but now she's going to a different college..

mayb..

mayb.. tis is our fate.. between me and her.. only a Chinese phrase can explains what's i feel lately..

有缘无份?

i'm proud to say i maintain my feeling towards her for 4 years.. although i met wif others girls but it seemed what i wanted wasnt what i had..

the world is like that..

the thing that u want the most, they'll take away from u..
mayb this is jz another stage of life that i have to face..

to learn how to let go.. the bind inside my heart for 4 years.. it's not tat easy to say:"i'm going to forget bout u.." NO! it's simply impossible to do so..especially when she's the one tat marks deep inside ur soul.. now.. i'm learning to let go of u..

i'll never forget about ur smile.. the way u look at me and the way u laugh.. everything will be kept inside a special treasure box inside my mind..eternally.. specially for u..

mayb by letting u go.. i'll be a better person.. i'll strike harder in my college life and get the best achievement that i ever expect of..

thank you for letting me to see u smiling and laughing although i see it from a distance..
thank you for rejecting my caring and treat me as cold as ice.. it makes me understand more things than ever..

and finally..

thank you for letting me in day-dreaming in 4 years..

thanks for everything..
all the best in ur NS although u're sent to Sabah..enjoy ur life there.. 3 months isnt tat long.. how i wish i can be sent to the same camp wif u..

haha, although i wrote all this crappy stuff.. but i think..u'll never step into here, i wont have the chance to show u wat i wrote..how i felt.. but.. i m satisfy enough.. jz by living in ur shadow..

loving some1 but doesnt expect any return..

i hope i can do tat =/

2008-03-09T04:22:00.000-07:00

political tsunami..

LOL.. the big day has ended.. wat do u know? BN loses 5 states to the opposition.. it's is indeed a chaos and a result tat most of the voters never expect of..

well, what past is passed..
may the new rulers can lead our life wif new hopes. hopefully peaceful will be spread all around the state =)..

3 MORE DAYS!!

then it's my death row..
zz..

2008-03-04T16:19:00.000-08:00

PHEW, finally i'm free from becoming the officer and sub umpire for the basketball competition zone keramat dy =) i'm soooooo tired until i dun hv the energy to update my blog.. sry ya xD
well, what can i say? in the past 9days, alot of scenario i have witnessed u know? the cruel side;the gentle side...shocking moment = =

cruel side..
i have seen alot of these during the female matches.. MAN!! they're so so ganas that keep on falling down and what we officers call them as ''kissing the floor''.. in just 1st quarter of the match, both of the teams have 'team foul' d.. can u imagine the way they play ? within 10minutes, there are more than 4 fouls in both teams jor= = .. really omg... some more they injure alot..injury during competition is normal but they're girls le.. some more the ''floor for the basketball court' is made from tar le.. not simen.. so can u imagine the moment when u fall down on the TAR[jalan ampang xD] in high speed ? OUCH!!

kind side..
although this is a competition but after the matches finish, all the team players shake hands..bow to opponent's teachers.. bla bla.. there's 1 incident which shock the game and push it into sudden climate.. when the players fall down, they will help no matter which team they're in... hmm, i think tis is what we called spiritual of sport :D ??

shocking moment!!
as u all know, ARBS has provided special education to the slow learners, so during the competition, suddenly 1 of the student run into the court..it's so danger that the players can knock down that innocent child le.. i remember that time i m the umpire for that match.. so i quickly blow the whistle and stop the match.. then 1 of the seri titiwangsa player accompany that child out and the crowd clap and cheer for his kindness.. LOL.. the story isnt finish yet... once child is out from the court.. he stays there for awhile.. then, dunno apsal, he runs into the court again= =.. beep beep beep.. i blow the whistle again[it's bcoz he run from the back of me so i m the 1 that respond to it 1st..] the game stop..again.. and every1 looks at the running child and then.. he runs back to his class dy= = LOL.. wat an entertainer..

well, the competition ends wif SMK st. john as the winner for both L15 and L18.. and girls i remember SMK Puteri Ampang as winner for P18.. P15 i forgot xD... ah, i m so hpy when they receive the medals and the big big trophy .. during the matches, i always wish to play like them as well.. wat to do.. i m too old for the match d... sob sob..

i think i m kena roasted also.. jz like my partner, jason xD.. but he's worse than me.. he's like TAR where my 1 still not tat serious la.. however, my frens did say i look like a 包青天 during last outing.. sien= =.. look like i need at least 1 week to cure it..

ah.. b4 i forgot, SPM result for 2007 will be released on 12th of march 2008.. so all the best to all the SPM leavers ^^ , stay cool man... [although i m v nervous =X] pray more more.. then ur result will be blessed xD.. PEACE =)

2008-02-27T04:23:00.000-08:00

SPM result releasing date isnt fixed yet.. so guys !! ignore the rumors about the date is end of feb... for more detail: visit http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/2/27/nation/20457229&sec=nation

now i am working as basketball officer in ARBS, so feel free to pay a visit to our old school =) more photos will be uploaded in the following weeks..

i'm changed internally.. damn =X sry for those who accidently get involved into my sudden mutation = = i m a freaking shit !! dam dam dam dam dam ~~~

WTFBBQ !! = = o0o

A memorable moment =)

2008-02-23T08:48:00.000-08:00

hey guys, i think u all know what date is tat isnt it? haha, it's our mr anthoson liew's birthday =) he's 18 liao, for ur information ^^ well, i m proud to say that this dude always invites us to his birthday party which normally held in his ''mansion'', rumor says that liew's parents r afraid of our craziness and decide to let us breathe free air instead of trapping inside liew's mansion XD.. haha..

well, this is the 1st party that i have as a SPM leaver.. it really brings me back alot of memories when the day i have an reunion wif those fellows, the insanity of the rayson is no longer exists during that party.. he has changed and becomes a PEACE walker xD ~ can u imagine rayson the insane helps me to BBQ ? fuiyoh.. i m so proud.. thanks wong XD ~~

then about the newcomer that jz accepts jesus =) haha, i can see him..holding the concept of true religion and it makes him a better person :D.. in my memory, he was some1 tat really need some tuning in his tone.. he speaks loudly, scold ppl loudly[especially me xD] and so on.. haha, no offence dude, plus i admire of his dare-to-talk attitude.. sometimes, we have sth burried inside our mind that have the phobia to voice it out, but this dude helps us alot =) of coz, u'r still as lame as always ^^ Mr Ooi Tong..

next is our drawer of the year.. britney's biggest fans.. well, frankly u look tougher liao, u know? ur wearing is kinda like western style d.. then, he becomes much much much more talkative than ever.. u can jz dare him to chat any topics,any songs,gossips,movies...etc etc etc.. he's jz like a encyclopedia to all these stuff.. what to do? he's measuring the soil since SPM ma XD.. lazy bump =X p/s: return back my shirt ah wei !! haha XD ~~

then now is my neighbours mr ngoo ngoo.. i can say tat his sense of humor increases from day to day.. he's getting lung-er than ever and pls.. i really scare to bet lung wif her dy.. since he can be classified as 1 of the lung-est in our 5Abnormal =) then now i hv to say :" i salute u,man !!'' he works daily .. frm mond to sund.. he's so so hardworking tat he doesnt need any day off 1.. dai lou, take a day off n go pak tor la.. unfair 1 u know XD.. haha..

then is my pal, my jayz =) i hv to admit it, he really looks much more mature before we graduate.. back then, he n the insane always kacau ppl in class 1.. n his main victim is wilson tiong.. the ''FASTEST'' fellow in our class.. but then, now he's so mature[in our level.. so dun feel too proud xD chill~] that he dun even spam foul languages in between us.. some more he has alot of plan to carry out and this leng zai sure kaya-raya in the future 1 xD .. but then, pls exercise la dude.. dun change ur car's tire to truck's tire la wei.. haha.. no offence =X anyway, u ROX dude ^^

for 5C ppl, i really cant gv my opinion in more detail bcoz u guys look the same to me.. jz have different aims and plans.. good luck in ur future guys =) and another ''outsider'' frm kosas 1.. our old comrade =) the dota pro, W!ls0n Coffee !! haha.. he's my buddy since form 1 and until now, we still keep in touch.. isnt it nice? although he's transferred to another school but still, he's as diao as always xD.. last the best in the next DOTA tournament =)

LAST but NOT LEAST- the birthday boy =), MR liew liew.. he's the most generous guy i ever meet =) but then, he's quite stingy in gaming xD he always sinka me in online game trading.. haha, but not tat serious la.. play play type 1.. then this guy.. can be said as a 宅男, u know? he can hide inside the house as long as the computer is in perfect condition.. he can boil anime until midnight and dota until sun rise.. MAN!! u ROX!! haha.. anyway, he's going for LAW, so i think he's capable in it so wat he need is HARDWORKING=) then u're the best lawyer ever !!

kk.. enough wif the description .. after the party, we went to CC and play until midnight.. ONLY tat time , 3 ''BOARS'' come out frm the jungle--Gilagila,Nakamura,Turtle.. haha.. cant blame them la, they hv to work.. but they quite gv face since they still go n hv fun at the cc although they're exhausted from work.. GOOD JOB guys =)

the worst part is here.. after the CC, me n ngoo ngoo were expected to wait for the DOTA pro to fetch us home.. but then, he was too bz pawning his foes.. endurance isnt categorized inside my mind, so me n ngoo ngoo JALAN KAKI balik at 1AM u know? i was dam freaking wry bout our safety bcoz recently my frens kena by their bad lucks d..

as i m walking back from the CC, i pray to guan yin to grant safety to us.. gratefully, i m safe..it's quite shocking when u walk alone,in the middle of night.. where only moon ''shines'' upon u.. rottens walk everywhere and the sound of the crickets echo around u.. haha.. anyway, wat past is passed =) AND, i nvr blame the DOTA pro coz he's bz and it's not good to always count on ppl.. suddenly.. i feel like....

I REALLY NEED A CAR!! DAM IT!! =X

tat's it =)

P/S: SPM RESULT MIGHT BE RELEASED AT THE END OF FEBRUARY.. AROUND 25-29TH.. ARE YOU READY?

[ i m v v scare=,=..... pray hard hard lai.. !! ]

Hematophagy !!! =,=o0o

2008-02-19T21:19:00.000-08:00

what the heck is hematophagy? obviously it's a habit when a certain living thing feed by sucking blood.. i was the victim of the so-called hematophagy recently..

every1 sleeps at night isnt it?[lol, stupid question..] but for me, i have a war to fight..they may win the battle but i will win the war !! those freaking creatures keep on kacau-ing me until i have to wake up and end their torturing !!

try to imagine it..

when u're sleeping soundly.. suddenly there's ''yiiiiiiiiiiiiii...yiiiiiiiiiiii..'' sound echo inside ur eardrum.. wat will u do?

tis phenomenon occurs not only once/twice.. but it's like it happens every half an hour u know? i really salute for the agent's timing..

who's the agent? thanks to our 6 long legs,scaled wings, a pair of halteres and a slender body insect...

!!!MOSQUITO!!!

i spray my room wif anti-mosquito[ridsect] stuff but then nth seem to be fixed la wei !! mayb the mosquitoes have develop a kind of mask to breathe when poison gas is released... =,=

seriously, humans should be making robots to kill the mosquitoes wif lasers.. then i'll buy it and put it in the field during night.. then, we'll be watching fireworks =)

LOL..lame=.=
anyway, i receive a rumor that says

SPM RESULT 2007 WILL BE RELEASED ON 12TH MARCH 2008

i'm not very sure bout it.. but i trust it for 70%..

DAM FREAKING ANXIOUS NOW ><"

Working =)

2008-02-12T20:07:00.000-08:00

haha, finally!! isnt it? well, cut down the crap in giving lame excuses.. i'll jz move to my point.. i have tons of post to update :D i started my work from 4th of jan till 6th of feb.. but i coudnt finish it due to some private reasons.. what m i working as? u might be asking...haha, for ur information, i'm working as the merchandiser for carlsberg in Cold Storage..in Great Eastern Ampang =)

Dunno where's cold storage?
See below --->

apparently, this is jz a img i grabbed from google,coz wont it be weird to take photo in public...some more jz for blogging=,=.. lame...

ok,for those that dunno wat is carlsberg[dun laugh!!! coz there really are ppl who dunno what the herll is carlsberg xD]..here's a logo for u to recall back ur memory..

ok, merchandiser.. what does a merchandiser do? well, i jz stand at the pavilion like a kayu and promote my products to the customers..

"isnt tat a promoter? y merchandiser? " u might be asking..
hmm, actually the definition for these 2 are almoz the same.. but.. merchandisers more rugi.. tak da commission 1.. HAIZ...promoters mostly have commission 1..

here's my pavilion or aka ''shop''..

the pavilion is quite short la wei.. i need to bend abit to replenish the stock.. zz.. oh oh!! wanna c how's the height of my stock at the store?

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa ~~

tall o not? it's like a combination of 2 and a half james tan standing..haha, me n my supervisor make this masterpiece 1.. i have another WTC in the security room.. but they disallow me to take photo :D.. the height is almoz the same but twice of it's width le !! .. imagine..

Tiger Beer.... my rival =)

the merchandiser from tiger is quite senior.. he's 20+ and of coz he taught me alot of... adult things[clearn stuff la of coz=,=] haiz... bad experience..

the hallway which reminds me of resident evil.. haha xD.. do u think so? kelvin?

ok, i wont be standing there for 12 hours without break isnt it?, everytime when i hv break.. i'll go meet my gf[s] they all wait me in a shop near my pavilion..
haha.. chill guys, the gf[s] i refer to are the pets in the pets wonderland wat.. they're all so adorably cute le!! if only i hv $ then i'll sapu all of them to balik kampung wif me during CNY xD

the pets wonderland !!

canine section =)
below r 2 doggies that cost 2k +... i repeat myself.. 2k+.. LOL.. [if i m not mistaken @@]

wat's this? carpet?LOL..it's jz another doggy frm the shop.. but where's the head? where's the tail? haha.. i m confuse too !!

here's a nice view for the ''carpet''.. look at her adorable face ......... she looks jz like my ex-gf in my house.. i miss my dog =(..

these 2.. the only doggies that i know their name.. they're chiwawa.. with thick furs :D..
i think each of them costs around 1.8k.. exp also-,-..

here's a photo of the girl tat work in the same supermarket wif me.. she's sam frm SBU.. a spm leaver also =D .. well, what to say, her level of curiosity is..unpredictable.. ah sam always wanna try new stuff 1.. haiz.. susahkan saya yang jadi pendengar dia.. haha, chill sam xD.. and the doggy tat she is hugging is her 1 of her FAVOURITE in the shop...

it's year of mice.. so i'll post 2 of the nicest photos i ever take during my working hour..[actually i took a few only xD]

the 1st photo from the left is so so so adorably cute.. all of them[hamsters] squeeze together and sleep.. look at them.. they're so so so cute !! haha XD
2nd photo.. i think the angle to take the photo is nice[coz i open the 'door' to take this photo ma XD], tat's y i upload the photo ..

rabbits vs guinea pigs..
which 1 u prefer the most? i like guinea pigs becoz of the colour of their fur.. but then i like rabbits becoz of their cute noses and ears.. haha.. so if u ask me which 1 to buy.. i'll jz say.. SAPU THEM ALL !! haha ~

the cold-blooded lizard.. they're so cool but.. kind ''motionless'' but 1 thing i found out from them is when u move around slowly, they seldom can sense u.. but if u move faster.. their eyes react like a godzilla 1.. haha..

hmm, for the past 20+ days, i learned alot of thing from my working place.. i even know how to wrap a hamper.. LOLx.. i'll update more posts before i go for my another job hunting.. so so sry for the delay =)

Shame On You!!!!

2008-01-02T23:37:00.000-08:00

i browse via youtube and found this video.. i was like.. walao~ if u listen carefully to it.. the song tat is played by the ''genius'' is actually in order.. so..

SHAME ON US~

even cat know how to play piano..
but..

PART 2
again, i found sth crazy... i'll let the video to do the talking=,=

what's ur comment?
for me, i think that..
this world is so insane xD ~

Crap Talk

2007-12-30T07:55:00.000-08:00

memories after memories..flashing back as i lie myself quietly and comfortably on my bed.. i cant believe that i m saying goodbye to the year of 2007. a year that marks its footstep deep inside my heart.. tons of lessons r learned throughout and yet, i m able to know my frens and myself more as learning process is carried out.

scoring SPM well is my major objective in this year, i m really anxious at the time i am known as SPM candidate. but now, i m a SPM leaver.. time passes at the speed of light, with a blink of eyes, a meaningful year is passed.. i can still remember vividly when i push myself sooo hard when i m doing revision for SPM.. as the laziest child in Tan's family, i manage to study more than an hour.. miracle isnt it? miracles do happen at certain time especially when it is at the 11th hour i suppose?

although some of the subjects disappoint me but life still has to be carried on.. i cant allow my life to be sabotaged by some obstacles..feeling unmotivated is highly prohibited if u wish to achieve sth success in ur life.. but then,i hv failed to obey this rule but losing isnt an option for me.. haiz.. and now i start to crap d..

in this year, i learn what is responsibility and self-respect.. responsibility in the term of carrying a task tat is dedicated by others.. i'm not saying that i m good in accomplishing tasks by others. for an example, i was once fall into moodless situation where i dun even SPEAK at school.. tis is extremely odd becoz every1 knows that if u ask them about James Tan, they'll reply u :"NOISY FELLOW "but then, i was completely MOTIONLESS in term of speaking that time..

mayb it's bcoz of the high expectation from myself and the tension i had that time pushed me into the edge of the cliff.. i even had a special ''voice out'' section wif my IC teacher advisor.. i was sooo pessimist that time and dragged all the blaming on myself. i blamed myself that i was not a good leader, i blamed myself for the slow process.. haiz.. i dunno wat was i thinking tat time.. come to think so tat, i m really a pessimist loser, isnt it ><"

well, what past is passed.. now i m still changing myself.. in order to be a better person.. if i cant let myself go, how can i help other ppl? how can i achieved my dream? how can i be the engineer of humanity?

the journey of our life is still far. wont it be a waste if we take an U-turn whenever we meet up wif obstacles? let's carry on our life wif full motivation and lead a life that matter[thanks jay =)] bcoz our life is jz a bubble.. enjoy it and do things that will not make u feel regret whenever u recall back ur beloved memories =)

anyway, 31/12 is an important day to all, let's us do the countdown and have a farewell party for 2007 and a welcome party 2008..

BonVoyage 2007 =)
Ohayo 2008 =)

2007-12-27T06:37:00.000-08:00

everyday i m repeating same thing..

dota..
wolfteam..
anime..
eat..
sleep..

haiz..my life is so dull as a spm leaver.. how i wish i can start schooling now.. but due to some obstacles, i hv to wait until 2nd intake.. well life isnt that simple after u graduate.. i know some of my juniors might b hunger for the ''eternal freedom'' after their graduation.. but think twice coz u'll be missing the school.. LOLX!! i cant believe i said it.. MISS THE SCHOOL.. actually i prefer school life T-T.. at least i can sinka abit at school / kacau the form 6 girls xD / be mean to the teacher ^^...

u might be asking me, y dun u go for a job hunting? well, apparently i have a job d and i m waiting to start working by jan.. what's my job? *secret*.. i wish to hv a peaceful working atmosphere.. u know how insane is my gang la.. they can tear apart my peaceful atmosphere and leave no survivors...

haih.. i m starting to crap here.. wat to say.. BORING BORING BORING... tomolo i hv to wake up at 6am to get myself rdy for my job's training course... in Shah Alam some more.. swt.. wish me luck then xD

p/s all the best to some of my frens that take undang test.. dun fail a !!

X'mas EVE

2007-12-24T06:35:00.000-08:00

yes,it's x'mas eve..i can feel the calming atmosphere mayb tis is y we call x'mas eve as 平安夜 .. actually i m quite excited about this year x'mas..the 1st year that i m going to celebrate it as a non-student.. but then,everything seemed to be not functioning according to my plan..

actually, to all that attended the xmas party held by AGC church ,u guys r lucky to celebrate it wif ur frens.. i would like to join u all but there're some obstacles that i was having tat so i coulnt join.. what a waste isnt it..

ok, so what is x'mas? for me, it's nth special [lolx,no offence guys].. bcoz my family doesnt preserve tis festival as our culture.. they say it's waste of $ to buy present la.. we're buddist so no need celebrate la.. tat's how i celebrate my xmas every year.. until last year i attended a xmas party that me n jason were invited by michelle.. thanks to her,i am able to taste the joy of xmas..

well,x'mas isnt all about present..candies..parties.. but it's about a day of sharing..caring..and forgiving.. i know my previous post offended my frens but pls dun get me wrong.. i m not scolding u all for being like tat.. it's jz my place to voice out the unpleasantness of mine ...

every1 does mistake..that includes u and me..i cannot deny that i did nth wrong towards u guys and i m awfully sry about what i did and what i said in the past.. b4 i seek for forgiveness frm u all. i muz forgive what u guys did/said to me..

i'll try to accept who my gang is and i'll try to change myself into a better person.. time determines everything..i agree wif yhan..i m jz acting self-fish in my previous post and i admit that i ignore the consequences that my frens will face of after they browse via my blog.. in anthoson's blog..i realise that time does determine everything..

i know different ppl have different style in presenting their intention.. tis means if i m over-sensitive on how my frens treat me..happiness will never be obtained in my life.. see things easily and treat them evenly r what anthoson told me last time.. i know sometimes we hv conflict in between our opinions but our main objective is the same,right?

no 1 is perfect in this world.. y should i focus myself on ur weakness and forget about the good characteristic that u guys have?? if i intend to dig out all of ur weakness.. then wat about me? m i qualify to do tat? if i am mr perfect then i can..but i m jz James Tan.. a normal person like my frens.. only god can justify us.. so..i m wrong.. my failure in over-confident that i m the best.. actually, i m nothing..jz a spoil brat that doesnt have the rational thinking in himself..

pls forgive me for my immature action..
pls forgive me for my self-fish manner..
pls forgive me for my forgiveness of our frenship..

i do wish to keep in touch wif all my frens that i met in my life.. they r unique,special characters that r marked deeply inside my heart as they bring me happiness,sorrow at the same time..

therefore..

SORRY

may god bless you and merry merry x'mas!!!!!

2007-12-18T21:35:00.000-08:00

Anger..
Fed up..
Pissed off..

what's wif all the expressions?? u may ask.. currently.. tis is the combination of my feeling now..y do i feel like tat?

Anger..Fed up..Pissed off..

y m i writing tis post? bcoz of the STUPID+IRRESPONSIBLE+IMMATURE decision that my so-called GANG did to me.. what happened? thanks to them, i finally understand that i m not tat important in this so-called GANG~

5Abonormal? yes they r abnormal.. i m not saying in the term of their ''jokes'',''attitude'' but it's the way how they treat frens.. for instant, the stupid class t-shirts that all of us in the class wish to do it.. but in the end, what's the feedback we got from the rest?

i m not discriminating Malay~ but some of my class Malay student.. ur attitude is 100% SUX!! 雷声大,雨点小~ u understand? all of u so semangat when the time i announce tis project.. but when it comes to money, all of u love to delay it..

When i ask for $, u'll say tomolo la..next week la.. bla bla bla.. ok, dun say i din gv u all chances.. some pay all but all in asing-asing 1... dam troublesome u know? my advice= NO $ DUN MAKE.. ok? if u hv the $ to buy motor,go out wif gf.. then y no $ PAY? dun gv me f*king excuses~ some more it's after raya and i m sure u all hv $ to pay~ where the hell are ur duit raya?

then some f*king chinese classmate dun wan to buy the shirts.. all gv me SHIT excuse: "buy for wat" , "i m not 5A student", "So exp la",''i havent see the design la'' bla bla bla.. IF U DUN WAN TO BUY,THEN TELL IT SO EARLIER~ DUN WAIT TILL WE ORDER UR SHIRTS THEN U SAY DUN WAN..U THINK WAT? I M UR FATHER'S PEASANT?

next, when it's time to take the shirt from the uncle.. the attendance.. what to say..SUX like SHIT? some of the Chinese came but not all show interest towards the shirts.. when i ask bout the size.. all dunno.. the designer jz kept on saying dunno la, cincai la.. mahem~ if u gv such answer, then jz stfu la.. better dun talk.. then u say ''dun ask me then'', wth? u're the designer..if everything also dunno.. then no need do the f*king shirt la..

then it's name list thing.. ya, all eat ice-cream n chit chat at a side n leave all the work to me n hing rite? GOOD!!!i m asking u all to write down the name u wish to sew on the shirt but u're asking me to help u?? who r u? my grandma? dun wan write/lazy to write then dun buy~ dun order for the shirts la, mamafanfan..

so we hv to wait for another day to take the shirts from uncle.. i TOLD them to sms me bout the time to pickup the shirt.. BUT NO RESPOND.. i TOLD them i m not going to klcc BUT i m goin to take the shirt but these F*KING lamer ''misunderstand'' it.. FINE!! i m ok wif tat.. so i decide to go there by 1pm..

when i reach there, i saw no 1.. only me,myself standing in the mcD and search for them like an idiot..i called them and wat's the reply?

WE NOW ALL IN KLCC D..WE THOUGHT U'RE NOT COMING..

Thought? i m sure ur mothers will tell u.. dun THOUGHT on sth..ASK if u're not sure.. ya good, u thought i'm not going klcc..tat's correct~ u thought i dun wan to pickup the shirt..if u can get everything that u THOUGHT to come true then y dun u THOUGHT for wealth ? THOUGHT FOR IT..since ur THOUGHT-ness skill is sooooooo geng..

u think i hv so much of time to go to ap? to let u all ffk? ya, u said it's near to my house.. i dun care bout tis BULL SHIT~ if u're going to klcc or wat.. JZ CALL ME and tell me where u guys going.. IS IT SOOOO HARD to call me? or u wan to save the F*king credit to kao lui? tis kind of simple concept u cant even understand.. then wat do u understand bout ''responsible''? learn moral some more.. hafal the nilai some more.. even though u got an A1, i'll still say that u're nothing but an irresponsible F*KING SHIT~

ya, some1 might say..
''chill la..u're over-sensitive..''
''aiyo..so big size,little bit jk also cant stand?''
''so dao kao.. walk abit then ma bcome thinner lo''
''desperate~~"

HEY!! i know i m FAT + BIG SIZE.. but do u hv to MENTION it every time? are u hpy when i say all of u are DAM SHORT? 17yrs old d but the height is like when i m form2? r u hpy? i m BIG SIZE.. tis is bcoz of my family gene..the bones r rather bigger and heavier..Y? JEALOUS? if not jz stfu la.. mind ur own business.. how fat or thin i m is non of ur business..

i m emotional? of coz.. it's not me or wat,i'm fed up wif tis kind of treatment~ i treat u all like my buddy but mayb ur way of expression is ''unique'' then sry, i m a normal human being..i CANT GET what is ''UNIQUE''..

ok.then when it comes to changing my template for the blog.. yes, i appreciate for ur opinion..but do u hv to criticize it until my choice is like RUBBISH? different ppl different favor.. i know sometimes i gv my ''harsh'' opinion on u but i did say sry after isnt it? but some of u PIJAK my choice until i feel myself like NO TASTE at all.. ok, to end ur stupid comment , i change the template..

u might think tis is jz not tat serious and u will say''wtf la james, tis childish thing u also wanna post?'' AH SHUT UP LA~ my template,my decision..if u wan to comment it,u're welcomed.. MODIFY ur STUPID tone pls...

ok next.. tis part i m dedicated to some1 in the gang.. I ADMIT that i had a GF that is older than me b4.. and it's LAST YR history.. DO U HV TO REPEAT IT EVERYTIME WHEN IT COMES TO RELATIONSHIP?? do u like when i gv COMMENT on ur relationship? u need to know some sensitive topics shouldnt be mentioned..especially the relationship stuff.. pls be caution on what u're saying ..PLS!! TALK AFTER U THINK WIF UR BRAIN AND DUN TALK WITHOUT USING UR BRAIN..

being friendly is jz wat i wish for.. but then i m doubt whether my so-called GANG can fulfilled tis requirement o not.. nvm, it's my own problem..my own problem that i cannot accept myself squeezed into a GANG that i cannot accept their way of treating ppl..

u all did bring my sweet memories.. but in the same time, sour and bitter memories r brought to me in the same time..

if it's my fate that my acceptance to be in a gang that i prefer to is denied..then let it be..no 1 is perfect..perhaps tis is not the gang that i m destined to..

p/s:if u r offended by what i wrote..it's ur own business.. i don expect for ur ''MATURE'' feedback..tis is jz what i feel for now ~

2007-12-17T02:30:00.000-08:00

Well, it has been a long time since i updated my blog.. actually i hv been bz wif other stuff so i m lack of time in updating the blog.. my frens told me that they had sooooooooo much of fun when they went for the AGC camp, well, good for u that u enjoyed it . frankly, within these few days i have been thinking..

where can i go to further my study,
wat course is available for me,
wat course is suitable to me,
is it affordable?
is the course that i study still in demand by the market?
can i cope up wif the course that i choose?
will i regret ?

the most important part in my doubting is ''will i regret'' , yes i believe that every spm leaver will think of the same questions as i do.. what journey will they take after spm..

A's level?
foundation?
Pre-U ?
SAM?
ACCA?
Form 6?
etc etc etc..

there r so many choices that u can make after spm but the problem is..

which 1?

yes, i told myself i'll go form 6 when i m stil studying in secondary school.. i believe that i can survive in form 6 and get good result.. well, i m too naive that time,life isnt as ec as u can predict and for a lazy bump like me, it's a way of wasting time to join form 6.. y? bcoz i m LAZY..

so i give up on form 6.. the syllabus aren't that suitable to me and the environment is not my favorite .. i ignore the question on ''where to go after spm'' and continue my study and now, i m a spm leaver..what is my next plan?

i went to the education fair and UTAR's open day and a lot of info are gathered within these few days.. some might think tat it's a waste of time if u go to any education fair where u hv to squeeze into the crowd jz to get some stupid papers..but i m afraid u're holding the wrong concept..

IT REALLY HELPS..

right after my spm, my main course is civil engineering.. y do i choose this particular course? well, the main reason is bcoz it earns money.. then u might ask what's civil engineering? for that, i can only tell u that a course that emphasis on development of the surrounding.. roads,bridges bla bla..

i thought i'll enjoy studying this course but it seem the syllabus that r provided in the course r generally what i dislike in secondary school.. hmm, i hv no idea y i hv phobia towards the syllabus.. mayb bcoz there r misture of chemist+add math+phy in it? i dislike solving complicated questions.. i dislike memorizing stupid chemical names.. so i guess tis is a wrong decision?

in UTAR's open day, they provided a self-study test..a test tat can be made as a guidance in choosing ur career..

for a civil engineer.. u need R as ur dominant result in the self-study test where as R=Realistic.. but my dominant result is a S[S=Social].. tis means that my natural characteristic prefer to work wif ppl rather than working wif machines,tools,computer..

yes i admit it, i prefer to talking wif ppl about their problems and i love helping ppl in solving the problems.. so i ask the lecturer about careers tat r available if u have S as ur dominant result..

PSYCHOLOGIST..

i m stunned as i m told about the careers.. other careers such as teachers,nurses,counselor,doctor are not in my option.. but.. psychologist.. i thought of this career when i m thinking about courses that i might be choosing..

is this fate? i know tat i hv told my fren that i m taking engineering.. but.. i m not tat kind of person that can sit for tat long in an office..or walking around a construction site whole day long.. as my motto mentioned: life is jz a bubble.. i would like to enjoy my life as much as i can by accompanying my family and by carrying out my hobbies..

yes, i m that kind of person.. LIBERATED minded..NON-BONDED soul..come to think of tat, the self-study test did help me..

i have asked my frens about psychology.. almost all of them say tat..

IT'S BORING..

my opinion : as long as u hv the interest in something.. boredness will leave u alone.. i m sure u can achieve excellent performance if u have the interest in doing a career that u like.. tis is called power of love? i m doubt :)

well, no more for confusing..life still have to be carried on.. now, what i want is a JOB.. i dun wan to ask $ frm my parents anymore.. earning $ is what i m thinking to do now..

all the best to the unemployed ppl like me.. wish me luck in my job hunting in this month.. Amen..

2007-12-03T00:14:00.000-08:00

the seed of love is germinating lately..almoz every1 is infected by the virus of love..desperate? nope..tis is bcoz every1 has nth to do...so they r like ''killing their time'' xD ..

kinda confuse about what is love lately..some told me that if u love some1, u'll be thinking of him/her everyday..wondering what is he/she doing.. happy when he/she is happy..sad when he/she is sad... bla bla bla...

well, in that case.. i hv alot of ppl that i love.. my family..frens..enemy.. man !! so many of ppl popped out frm my brain when i relate the theory wif it.. but who knows, tis stuff is complicated..

i do advise my frens in relationship matter although i jz experienced it once..i admit it that it is a failure.. i can say tat everything is my fault..wrong concepts,wrong moves,wrong judgements..everything doesnt work out fine under my prediction..

mayb some of u r scolding me..

dai sei !!!

shame on u..

wtf.. noob? so ec also dunno?

but..hey !! every1 has their 1st time isnt? my 1st time sux..so wat? at least i learnt sth frm it..no1 is perfect in this world.. even babies will fall down n cry when they attempt to walk..but after tat,they stand up and walk again..

hence,

be a learner frm ur failure !!

like rayson told me lately..

dont give up until the last moment..

this is truly a spirit that every1 has to remember frm the bottom of their hearts if they wish to success in everything..especially love thinggy..

rome isnt built in one night..who will expect to complete their mission in jz a short period? if u do, then i recommend u to sleep earlier and dream about it.. time shall reveals everything..if both of u have fate..u'll be together no matter what will happen..on the other hand, no matter how hard u try..how hard u struggle..failure is ur answer..

yup,tis is jz a stupid point of view from me..a watcher that sees many chaos and disaster that happen among the couples..however,i can see changes,joy and happiness in the same time..

Love can changes everything..

do u agree wif tat? some yes some no..for me..well, it depends.. 江山易改，本性难移..tis is how i think..every1 says i m a kiam siap[kedekut,stingy] person..if u expect me to change it bcoz of some1...then sry !! tis is impossible to do it..

impossible=i m possible?

no sry..who i m will be who m i..so dun try to change it..for an example..

1+1 = 2 rite?

if u insists to..

1+1=10 ..

ok,u can do it when the base is 2 , but not base of 10..

so my principe is the same..unless special event happens,then sry !! no changes will be made..

life is unfair..nothing will happen according to ur mood,ur desire and ur will..so treat it fairly..challenge the consequences..be urself !! then u'll rox !!!!

to all the couples and future-couples out there.. ALL THE BEST in ur life !!! u need it =)

TAGGED!! again~

2007-11-30T09:20:00.000-08:00

GOT TAGGED....AGAIN BY MR. CHAOS

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:
1.Get A Personal Desktop!!!
2.Get A PSP xD
3.Straight A1's in SPM [sry chaos..my wish as well =X]
4.Wing Zero Custom Model..[costs u around rm 700++ =.=]
5.last but not least..HEALTH =)

PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS :
Ooi Tong

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER
1.Creative [a pro choreographer =)]
2.Optimist [ tis guy always hpy 1... zz]
3.Naive [in thinking..but tis is his specialty xD]
4.PLAYFUL!!!! [yes!!]
5.love to take photos..[tis guy..is a camera-photo-phillia type 1]

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU:
hmm... i can only use the word 'evil' to describe him :(.. always bully me by complaining bout my size T.T..the way he pronounces ''dai ko'' is damn funny xD

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU:
What else? DAIKAO !! xD

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL:
wtf~ i rather bcome a monk then choosing him as lover ><"

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE:
his non-stop criticising T.T... but now.. biasa wif it d=,=

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:

1.Travis Thong
2.Ooi Tong
3.Rayson Wong
4.Jason Ong
5.Ong Yu Han
6.Kelvin Loh
7. Ai Xing
8.Poh Guan
9.Vivian
10.Michelle

WHO IS NO. 7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH
no idea..hopefully no one xD... [then got chance d XD]

WHO IS NO. 9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
ooi tong's ? [he claimed it himself xD] poor vivian..

IF NO.9 AND NO.1 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
height difference..some more they dunno each other xD...

WHAT ABOUT NO. 1 AND NO. 5?
trajedy of broke back mountain will be repeated :X

WHAT IS NO. 3 STUDYING?
books which teach how him to ''kacau'' ppl=.=..

WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO. 6?
in anthoson's party..he was teaching me piano xD.. prince charming :D

DOES NO. 4 WORK?
work as goldfish man ???? haha..he's doin some investment i guess ^^

DOES NO. 8 HAS ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
no idea..but a guy almoz same name wif her.. Wong Poh Lam xD

WILL YOU WOO NO. 8?
omg..r u joking?..

HOW ABOUT NO. 5?
bookworm !!! SHIT~

DOES NO. 2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
he's the only pearl in the house xD

HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.3
my classmate la..duh=.=

AND NO.4?
same~my classmate since Form 1 xD

WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?Wht road?
some where called small genting xD

HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2?
Classmate as well.he sits beside me[hell alike life]

IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
ask again=.=... u'll be regret ><"

2007-11-28T05:53:00.000-08:00

The smell of freedom is getting nearer as there is only 1 more subject left in this freaking SPM..wahaha,i m sensing that i'll be having so much of fun after SPM..however,emptiness still cannot be avoided since we hv to wait till march to take our result then continue our study..so my plan is..

Play 1st~

Work later~

i think i'll be start working on january..
promoter?
hmm,tat suits my characteristics since every1 ''praises'' me for being ''well-talked''= ="..but i'll see which field has vacancy la..

here's the last snapshot of us..taking bio paper3 in the exam hall :D

what can i see r tables and chairs..

taken by myself right after i went out frm the hall when i m done ^^

as the monitor of 5Abnormal,i own an unique uniform which is specially dedicated by my fellow comrades xD.. here's a photo of it ^^

every1 loves to spam on my shirt XD

k..then it's tuesday..as promised,i followed mr anthoson to lowyat as his temporary kuli :D.. he got a cool desktop wif the help of calvin who aka computer freak[chill calvin :D] he paid 2.6k for the comp and i think the price was quite resonable although i dunno what the heckwere they talking when they were shopping=.=

i was adored by this poster..MAN!! my godness could only be described as ''CUTE'' T^T...

it's BBQ time where every1 was invited for that BIG party..

the ingredients for the day were

chickens wingz[or aka rubber chicken wingz],

hotdog,[best ingredient to be burnt wif honey ^^]

potato, [ not so popular ]

fishball, [ 1 word..FROZEN~.~]

satay[my favourite :O],

corn[kelvin's favourite=.=],

fish[YHAN's most desperate choice] and so on..

spagetti n salad were made jz for fun but i think the combination of these 2 dishes were SPLENDID!!

here's a few photos to continue the story telling...zzz..

~~Recruit for MCA's member~~

1st lucky member~Mr.kaka hing :D

2nd lucky member~Mr Jayz :D

The event was carried on amazingly where the taiko of SSA was attracted by the sincerity of the inviter :D

here's the photo of the taiko..

Ming Ko~ :D

actually,there were still many new members tat joined MCA..n capturing photos during BBQ wasnt able to accomplished.. y? bcoz i m bz eating :D...sedap ma..

ladies~

do u like ur man to be a pro musician?

piano?

guitar?

drum?

violin?

here's 1 of the pro musician that i would like to share..

Name: Kelvin de pro

Height: measurable :D

Weight: a hard task~

Specialty: PIANO :D

here's the prince charming playing piano..dun wry..he can reaches the notes ^^ [chill kelvin]..

well,we stayed over anthoson's house on tat day..it's hard to believe but we were getting more energetic as time tickled..the desire to sleep seemed to be forbiddened by us XD..mayb tis was called insanity of 5ABNORMAL..

we were soo energetic until our aura made anthoson's parents FORCED us to sleep..haih, we thought we might had a ''special night'' but hey!! no problem !! who were we?

5ABNORMAL!!

after a while,we started to gather back at anthoson's bedroom[command centre] and started to make MINOR noise XD.. in the same time,2 members[the mask owner n kaka hing] were soooooooo bz in their sms-ing..[they sms until 4am !!!] man !! i was wondered..their gf tak payah tidur ke? haih..panda couples=.="

PLUS~ mr jayz n his faithful football fan's mushroom leong played winning eleven for 10++ matches d..omg..wat's so fun about tat football game? other than that, there were survivors who tried to sleep in that long night..

YHAN~

tis guy..hmm..he kept on kacau-ing us at 1sth then asked us not to sleep..but in the end..he slept 1st..memang teruk=.="

CHAOS~

mosquito LOVED him so much..if u went out camping..bring him and the mosquito will leave u alone :D..

ANTHOSON~

he lost mood when he found out tat the pc he bought was havin some problems[fixed]..but..he's enjoying the night :D

JAMES,myself~

i was so so so sensitive to dust..so i kept on sneezing tat day n my neck was extremely itchy..Y? hot and dusty~ but i managed to survive...HOORAY=,="

well,those freaks went for football match at 10sth..were they nutz or wat? i jz stayed there n play ps2 which were left by kelvin de pro..i hadnt touch the ps since yesterday..thanks to them=.=....

well,althought comfortablity isnt tat satisfy during the night..but once again..i m hpy that i spend another memorable moment wif my gang :D..laughty spread around like virus as we hang out together..damn !! i start to miss the old time d T.T...

ALL THE BEST GUYS =)

A pause

2007-11-23T05:48:00.000-08:00

well,as all the science students know,we hv survived the most difficult week in spm..add math,phy,chemist..all in the same week some more i believe we dun hv the time to prepare it frm A to Z rite?

so jz do it.. let no regretness haunts ur mind so try ur best in ur exam =)

today paper..MORAL..hmm,wat to say..it's not tat challenging[for the ppl who do revision on it] plus MORAL is jz a subject which emphasises on common sense isnt it? :D they ask u more in ways and impacts or consequences if any of the problems havent solved yet..

0080-1030[2hr 30minutes] is the time limit for the paper..i went out at 10am after i was sure everything was done and in the perfect state tat i could afford to accomplish.. after that we went to ampang point to play bowling as we had planned it yesterday thursday..

beyond the expectation, our activity was joined by some1 tat the rest isolated him..actually i was ok wif it..janji tak pijak limit saya la..so the best way is ask him to stfu..but..useless advice= = hence,we played 2 rounds and as the newbie of the game..i sapu as the last scorer..tis was wat jayz called me NOOB xD

i admitted that i was damn noob in bowling..i couldnt find the correct strength and direction to throw the ball u know?if i used too much of strength..my ball jumped into the longkang..if i put too much of focusing in the direction..the strength required to pin down the pins werent enough..''sign'' no talent? nope!!! not enough of practice only :D i m sure i can catch the concept 1..someday..

right after that,we went lepak at ampang point for awhile then went home..it was a hot hot hot dayz..as i was sweating heavily when the sun shined proudly above my wetty forehead..the shadow of myself seemed to be diminished by the arrogant sun as the sunny grandpa laid his high-temperate palm on me and therefore amplified my hunger for chill atmosphere..

wtf~i started to miss the old days..writing essays that were given by our eng teacher..zz..i had too much of grammatical mistakes that i needed the teacher to recorrect it for me..well,crapping wasnt the main purpose for this topic..

to think it deeply..2 more subjects[5 more papers] then i'll be free frm the deadly spm..oh yea,rumors say that we might be resitting for add math?wtf!!the previous add math paper is so challenging..now we hv to retake again? sien lo..some more some say that the grading for spm will be increased..<----WORSE PHENOMENON!!

ahhh~dun care la..jz pray hard then can d..well,gaming time now..bio revision will be started on sat [if possible]XD

2007-11-17T17:43:00.000-08:00

well, here's a short update in my blog since there isnt anything special tat happen recently..i believe many r struggling for the papers the coming week..

add math,
chemist,
physics...

man,i started to hate the time table d..how come all the diffucult subs r arranged in the same week? do the goverment really wan to torture us? zzz..so wat to do? frankly i play more than i study..really omg..y? bcoz i hv lost my motivation to study..wahaha,let's wait for the doom then :D

k then,i'll jz upload few photos to do the talking..boring as usual =X

finally..i own a casio keyboard xD..

a new music sheet given by my guitar teacher,the song is called ''mr lonely'' =)

yup..add math as usual..

tis is wat i m studying for chemistry..

p/s dun underestimate these 4 papers..they cost u RM10 u know!!!?

haih.now,my only hope is to say bye bye to spm..i m looking forward for the independent days tat i m goin to hv after spm.. wahahahahah~~

all the best guys =)

revenge?

2007-11-14T18:47:00.000-08:00

This section is specially made for a man who is SO FREE that he ''transformed'' all his frens into his imaginative world by using paint..

so, as the monitor of 5Abnormal..i decide to repay his sin by editting a new photo of him..

he mentioned himself as the king rite?

yup,i totally agree wif it..

y?here's the reason XD

皇上驾到……
万岁万岁万万岁……

well,i'll let u guys to do the judgement on the picture..

to Mr.Chaos:

if u're so free,go do revision la XD..

hehe.. chill la dude ~

anyway, this section is made jz for fun..

no offence guys=)

chill guys..i'm jz doing my job as the monitor ~

2007-11-10T15:52:00.001-08:00

The big day is jz few more hours frm now..self-confidence is no more the factor to prevent myself frm being overwhelmed by the cursed SPM..man!! eventhough the 1st week papers arent tat difficult to me..but i m really afraid that i cant score well in the papers..

careless,blankless and emptiness might haunt me during the exam weeks..with jz 1 mark,u can drop frm A1 grade to A2,frm A2 to B3..OMG!! i dun wan my result to be

STRAIGHT B'S!!! [coi coi coi]

i know it's hard to get STRAIGHT A'S..especially when u hv certain subs that u're weak on them..of coz,i'll try my best to get to my objectives =)

trying is what i can do now..try my best,leave no regret,sit for it witf full strength r the only choices that i think i m able to achieve..of coz,do not expect that i'll study for >8 hrs bcoz an ENERGETIC boy like me wont be able to sit down quietly n do revision without any LOCOMOTION..

praying can build up ur self-confidence..so pray hard n u'll b better =)

good luck to all SPM candidates!!! dun let urself down !!! appreciate the last chance to prove who u r and what hv u learn in this 2 yrs!! let the god be witf u..insya allah..amen..orlitorfat~.~

2007-11-07T08:10:00.000-08:00

SPM SPM SPM..every1 is mumbling bout how to die when spm strikes them..some complain they dun hv enough time ; some complain they hv too much of time until they dunno how to spend it= = well, for me i always practise the same philosophy that i hv been practising it since primary school..

Easy come Easy go..

i'll jz treat everything without losing my head,patience will unlocks all my doubtness and mystery..however, as yhan says: life is a mystery to live in not a problem to solve..

so y bother to live a life miserably?

frankly,i m 65% prepared for spm..where's the 35 %? science subs cover majority of that percentage bcoz i havent finish everything.. the gods/ in my class seem so semangat for the arrival of spm..they jz keep on study,study and study in class[eventhough there isnt anymore teaching + the environment is DAMN noisy]..i really admire their ''isolated skills''

they can 'isolate' themselves inside their own capacity,space,mind and even in their own world..for example, we need a quiet situation to memorize certain subs rite? those gods.. man ! they can memorize while chit-chatting in the class..i m like ''wtf?'' how can they do different things in the same time? mayb tis is the difference between god n human..

well,now i m goin to post some photos that i snapped on monday..tat was the final day we were able to attend our 华语老师，张老师's chinese class in school..although there were only 5 form 5 students..but the loudness that we can make is much more better than 50ppl.. y? bcoz we hv Rayson the insane in the class XD..

here's some photos =)

Pizza again :D..

Here's a better view of the main dishes =)

that's 张老师 ^^ [the most patient teacher i ever meet]

well, the photos are quite little in number..bcoz i was too bz eating pizza tat day till i hv no time for the photo section :P..

today is thursday..tomolo friday..saturday..sunday..MONDAY..

so let me c..5 more days rite? yahoooooooo~ finally spm is here...i m sick of waiting the arrival of spm..u know the feeling of waiting kills me b4 i sit for the exam.. i hv so many plans to do after spm n now i m trapped like an innocent bird in the small,narrow rusty cage..

well,let me wish all the candidates that r going to sit for exams i.e SPM and STPM once more time..

MAY GOD BLESS YOU

as soul says..

impossible= i m possible :)

so let's make the possibility of being possible to be achieved!!!

ALL THE BEST!!

The Starting of a New Germination..

2007-11-02T02:54:00.000-07:00

apa khabar apa khabar kawanku,rasa weird weird kan? memang..sebab
i akan guna bm+bi+bc untuk mencatatkan hari yg begitu SPECIAL dlm
blog saya ni..since rayson dan jason telah menggunakan bi dan
bc..untuk menunjukkan KEISTIMEWAAN blog saya ni,inilah saya punya
杰作...

i know memang dah lama i tak update blog saya ni..对不起la,ni sebab
i rajin belajar ni..spm ma[yalah tu XP]..dah la tu,saya tak nak
crap di sini,rasanya saya akan cakap sikit tentang event yg
berlaku lately ni..

星期三……通常都可说是其中一个最最最最烦闷的日子，当天又上chemist,又上bio，memang senang dilemaskan..but but,today is special..y?

sebab ada jamuan ma..jamuan apa?ia macam majlis penghargaan bagi pegawas & pegawas koperasi la[saya la tu]..makan apa?chicken ialah main dish-nya..haih..memang susah..tapi tak pa la..since ini keikhlasan cikgu-cikgu saya..tak boleh complain
banyak kan-.-

susah la mau guna 3 type bahasa untuk tulis.. tak pa..i akan let
the photos do the writing =X

main entrance for CHICKEN paradise =)

woi!!where the hell is yhan looking at= =

let's test our gadget's ability :D

alamak,act like a gentlemen la.. ppl girl u pull his hair..[i meant her :D]

let us see ur guilty face..BUT..''KAWAII'' XD

ini baru dikatakan gentlemen...what a couple..i m so jealous T.T

nowadays,hp is more convenient than camera :D

FOOOOOOOOD TIME~~

a simple introduction[thanks for chaos's photo] =)

teachers r having conference BUT we 5Abnormal..haih~

happy day wif a happy ending :)

syok tak? k la,now is the 星期四 punya graduation ceremony XD
hmm,now i'll use pure english to describe this special event..tis
is bcoz i would like to leave a good img on this special event
that i have in my whole life..

what should i wear? this was the most troublesome enquirement that
i m having since i m told about the ceremony..how come i was so
fussy about this matter?hmm,should i say..1st time? well, i was
kinda strange actually, everything that i was doing it for the 1st
time, i wanted it to be in PERFECT STATE...in another
word,perfectionist i guess..but not in all the stuff..

so i picked black shirt black pants[actually is dark blue- -] and
white tie as my outfit la..reached at ampang park at about 10am..i
m not late XD..when i came down the bus,few mushroom heads were
spotted..after awhile, HEY HEY!!what do u guess? the most -tomboy-
like chinese girl in our school..wore like a ''PRINCESS'' :D..it's
totally unpredictable and unacceptable..

and then we walked to the damn hotel la..it's quite kacau when we
hv to walk so far to the destination..however every1 was soooo
anxious about it and we [talk talk talk] along our journey and
distance didnt seem to be a problem anymore, under mr anthonson
and oii tong's guidance,we made it !!

ok,now i'll save my words and let the photos do the talking..the
photos r quite the same as others..y?
same camera ma..

Black+Black+Black~.~[waiting impatiently]

Crown Princess=)

the stage...

so empty !?of coz, we're the 1st team tat arrived :D..

Jay n James..Double J :D.. p/s,he's standing on sth :D [chill chill]

Mr NEA..1 of my old buddy :)

waiting for the graduation section ^^

we're not rdy yet=.= who snapped the photo !!

same old gang..but where's yhan !!?

peace every1 :)

as jason said,we're the survivors frm 3 Dinamik XD

alala jason,my photo is better than urs la..look at her smile :D..

waiting patiently to receive our certificate ^^

5Abnormal ^^.. i m proud of u :)

FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD again = =

i'm afraid of this photo..bcoz it reminds me back the food we ate :(

woi jason, y the hell u're wearing the spec :D..

right after the graduation ceremony..we went to the toy store which located in the city plaze..lots of silly photos were taken XD

GIGIGUGIGI~transformers~~jason n james XD

arghhh..slaugtering the wiz kelvin de pro:D

happy happy RUBBER sword fighting =)

the trip to the toy store signified the ending of my outcome for today..well, the purpose of choosing my tittle tat is ''How it begins,How it ends''..actualy,it is quite simple..in my own book, knowing each other is a new experience in life..

in this 5 yrs,i can say that i got the chance to know more frens,buddies or even foes..although i come frm different school..everything was very difficult when u're an a outsider..but,i m glad that i can mix up wif them..eventhought sometime/ every time i m bullied by them XD..but i know,this is jz a way of expressing our friendship..some might think that my thinking is strange,insane or wat..but this is what i hv conclude for this 5 yr..

those who always praise u might be a scary person..this is what i call 'never judge a book by its cover'' =) so be caution when u're stepping into this eerie society..everything will be different..being caution is jz a tactics to survive in this world..

although i m same class wif almoz 70% of my classmates for 2 yrs..many incidents have happened and i'll treasure them closely in the bottom of my heart..

this might be the most disgusting speech that i'll ever say in my whole life.. but i would like to say..

FRIENDSHIP FOREVER =)

thanks for everything guys.. i really hope that we can keep in touch after we're graduated^^

all the best in our SPM :)

Special thanks for~~

PHOTO CONTRIBUTERS :

Anthoson liew

Jason Ong

Wong PG

Mohd Haithal

and Myself :)

15 more dayZ

2007-10-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

well, it seems that spm is getting nearer..15days left? i was like.. yahoooooo..finally i can sit for my final exam as a secondary student..but..WAITi m not fully prepare for it..lots of sutff i havent cover up..

haih..what to do?study 24hr? nah..tat's for genius..as a lazy bum..i'll jz try my best in my revision..i prefer the word 'quality' than 'quantity'..the longer u study doesnt mean u're better..do u agree?

Friday~

hmm,yesterday was my final tuition class in kita..Mr huan who aka my best physics teacher gave alot of advices to us during tat time..i can felt that he's actually cared about us and didnt want us to follow the wrong paths..so touched T.T

well,here's some snapshots that we took in KITA tuition centre for the last time..

Go For It..it'll gurantee ur A's in physics =)

This is Mrs Huan aka a sweet distributor :D..she's friendly =)

We,5Arif taking photo wif mr & mrs Huan =)

ahaha..nevertheless..the mystery girl XD

Saturday~

as usual,i went out early in the morning for my favourite sport, basketball in school..i'm quite hpy today la coz i managed to perform well during the matches..i think the score is about 5win-4lose..after that,it's guitar class time..the new song i learnt is a quite classical song which is 'fairy dance'..

i m a big fan for resident evil so today i went out for it wif 1 of my fren la XD[i know it's late ><"]..i can said that the movie was EXCELLENT..quite shocking and fun when u're watching in the cinema where as the seats were quite empty :D

here's some photos la :)

Alice aka Project Alice..she's damn cool in the movie :D

2 tickets..hmm? who did i went wif ?? =X

well,time and tide wait for no man..use the time wisely so that regretness will not haunt ur future as u recall back ur past =)

School Dayz again =)

2007-10-23T05:56:00.000-07:00

well, as i told in my previous post,i had diarrhoea..well,i m ok with it d..since i went for bombing section tons of time, i guess i managed to eliminate the toxics frm my body :D..
ok,today is tues.. i felt quite tak biasa wif the school environment..everything's changed d..PLUS some classes have whiteboard instead of blackboard[included my class :D]..wasai..our school so dam rich XD..

so as i was saying,i was hoping to chit-chatting wif my frens at school la..there r few gangs in my class..1 of my gang..aka gang of insanity..ABSENT!! they r gila gila,c_hing,the mask owner,burger king,007 aka mo siang king..so i was like..sitting alone T^T..fortunately my other buddies accompany me in chit-chatting la :D.. hoho..

so the day jz passed like water..i'll post more of my class photo in the next blog la..
here's some special incident that happened today =)

can u spot the differences?

p/s let me gv u some hints..COLOUR?HEIGHT?SMELL? XD

it always happens when election is being held near my area :D [no offence XD...shhhhhh]

what's maple story? some might confuse what the heck is tat?well,here's some of snapshots that i got via out the game XD

been chased by an iron pig ><"

Me,in a sexy bath robe and LOOK!! my new guild :D.. ChrOniclE :D

Bought frm secret recipe :D..

diarrhea ><"

2007-10-21T18:55:00.000-07:00

i didnt go to school today..y?some of my frens might ask me y y y y ? ponteng? nope!!! I HAVE DIARRHEA la dude !!

ARGHHHH...i had been going to toilet like every 2/3 hr since i woke up this morning..crapz la..what did i eat ~let me do a food list ><" Breakfast:
Nasi Lemak + Chicken [i ate tat b4 but i m ok wif it =.=]
yao zha gui [me n my family had it also..so i guess nth's wrong with that]

Lunch:
Nasi campuran at Mamat stall..[YES!! i think tis is where i ate dirty stuff..curse u mamat stall!!]

Dinner:
Fruit + chocolate..[duh=.=?u think i'll get poisoned frm the fruit n my darling chocolate?]

haih..looks like i cant go to school bcoz of this stupid diarrhea!!i wanna go to school and chit-chatting with all my frens ahhh!!!!

anyway,hopefully i wont be going to toilet for bombing section..><"

SaturdayZ =)

2007-10-20T16:55:00.000-07:00

As usual,saturday morning is the only day i play basketball at school..since i was asked by my frens to go AND i ask jason to go as well,i cant b a pilot >.< color="#ff99ff">7am n reach there at about 7.20am..wuiyo.i wonder how i go there :D

so we played..

Total game match 7 games[3 win : 4 lose T^T]

sign..at 1st we won bcoz the other seniors hadn't warm up yet :D..so of coz we ambil the kesempatan la XD..

well, no more crapping..let's view some of the photo me n my frens took ^^

Anthoson Liew aka shooter of ARBS :D..y?look at his style...DAMN YENG ><"

Rayson/Steven..it's the same..the only MASK owner in our school..AND !!he's INSANE :X

Well,tat's me all rite :D taken by JayZ ^^

after the fun section i had wif my frens..as usual i went to guitar class =)...

here's a photo of my favourite classical music sheet~

The song is called ''Pensando En Ti'' by A.Alba..it's short but meaningful:)

it was a rainy u see,so as a hog..of coz i'll not lose the golden opportunity to take a SHORT nap :D..

NiteZ time ^^ and i was overjoyed that my parents take us for a meal at PIZZA HUT[near Ampang Point]..although we order normal food but i m satisfied enough to hv a meal wif my family..

Welcome to Pizza Hut =)

Garlic Bread + cheese powder floating on the mushroom soup..and it's AWESOME !!

the menu havent changed since the last time i saw it :X

Dining time :D

Well, i was 70% full that time so satisfaction did happened ^^

right after the family meal..it's STUDY and STUDY and...STUDY again..the whole night i hv been doing physics >.<...but of coz, i m not v good in it..forgot alot of formula some more i dun hv physics reference book XD..

Ending section for mr huan's note..to all the F4~go and hv him as ur tutor.. MR HUAN ROCKS!!

and his joke is damn lame[we like it :D]

well,tat's all for today..hope u guys enjoy my blog ^^

Tagged!! you're in ~

2007-10-18T10:36:00.000-07:00

Got Tagged by NJAYZ=.=

so here goes nth..

Seven things to be done before my death.
1-Share the final moment with my precious family and frens :X..

2-apologive to all the people i know for any mistakes that i did in my life..

3-buy as many insurans as possible so that my family can benefits frm my death XD..

4-of coz,travel over the world and collect souvenirs frm all over the places i went to[and bury it with my coffin] :D

5-eat whatever i want and play whatever i want..

6-buy a big big coffin so that i can exercise when i m in the ground :D

7-play dota for the last time and enjoy it for the last time T.T

Seven things I will NOT do even if it kills me.

1-sleep by myself in the graveyard WITH JUST A PILLOW..

2-eat BEEF in front of my mom [religion issue =X]

3-sell my house to pay any of my critical debt[ i love my house T.T]

4-DELETE DOTA[game] from my pc !!! [nononononono~~]

5-watch horror movie by myself at night XD..

6-stop frm playing basketbal~~[u better kill me !!!]

7-eat anything that costs me MORE than my BUDGET!![$ is important la=.=,y waste]

Seven things I do when I’m away from the public.

1-sing QUIETLY...[and it suxs !!]

2-bite my nails when i m thinking of sth....[like now :D]

3-scratch my forehead eventhough it's not itchy..

4-look at the mirror whenever i pass by a piece of mirror[omg..i m gay !!]

5-sit on chair by lying 60% of my body :D

6-scold bad words when my gaming sux [ not tat bad of bad words =X]

7-talk to myself when deciding what to do[hoho,i hv to admit it..i m a weirdo :D]

Seven fav sentences/quotes.
1-walao aaaaa..

2-deng lo~~

3-Life is just a bubble [ *wink*]

4-Sh*t !!

5-woiiii~

6-Nia meh ahhh~

7-zha dou=.=....

Seven favourite songs from all time.
1-change urself --- lee hom

2-Apologive -- timbeland

3-welcome to the black perade-the black perade

4-Digi's commercial's song..[i will follow you :D]

5-Home - Chris daughtry XD

6-girlfriend-avril

7-NEGARAKU-nation anthem..[I LOVE MY COUNTRY]

That's all for the ''tagged''=.=.. dun wry, i wont pass the curse to the next person..anyway,hope u enjoy the lame stuff i wrote :D..

muahahahaa ~

Holiday?

2007-10-18T04:49:00.000-07:00

yippe~~i m back blogging again..well,frankly i m a kind of lazy bump:D..so i m quite lazy to update my blog la of coz..kaka..THANKS TO MY BUDDY JAYZ, i m tagged by him so now i m updating my blog to ''elakkan kemaluan'' :D..

kk,to all the readers here,now i m updating wat do i do during tis longggggggg holiday^^hmm,we went for lawat-lawat trip for raya..for more info, u guess can go to http://mynjayz.blogspot.com , since jay jay explained all in his blog d so i guess i'll skip this part :D..

before i proceed,this is what i got frm the trip~~

sweaty shirt+ green pao+my hp handfree XD

kk..tat's wat i got frm the 7 hours trip le!!

well,after the raya trip[monday], it was tues rite ? [lol,lame question] we planned to go to Kelab Darul Ehsan aka KDE for badminton and swimming moment..HOWEVER,due to the lackage of security at my house tat time, i couldnt make it T^T..how sad.. and they even laugh at me saying need cellophone tape to tie the racket at my hand..y?i m a hog XD.. oink oink :P..

tues nite..there was a ragnarok online aka ro guild war..what's a guild war?i'll show u guys la :D..

can u see where am i? kaka..i know it's abit of messy..but it's how a ro guild war is :P

well, during night time, that was around 10pm sth, of coz i m doing my revision as a spm candidate la..wuiyo..cant believe le? JAMES TAN doing his REVISON XD..

here's the proof of my hardship >.<

it's add math + bio + chemist hell..haih..it's the hard time where all candidates hv to suffer to get gd result >.<..

my life boring? NAH...i play guitar when i m bored :D..but not v good at it :X..

my Guitar XD..it's old but nice to use..[shhh,my guitar can listen to my complainment >.<]

well, that's what i do in these few days..play,sleep,study..so boring >.<...

aha, b4 i go, wanna share wif u all my timetable[sheldure for SPM] XD..it's damn GAY...

look at it, sticked on the door of my bedroom..and it's SOOO simple XD..

well,tat's for today..i m going for my dota d XD..i'll try update it more often 1 ^^..feel free to flame my blog XD..

p/s: those pic was taken recently..it's all THANKS to mr JAYZ :)