it's almost 3am in the morning..
and here i m, blogging bcoz it passes my bedtime dy now..

recently many many things happen around me..
i had great moments with my college friends..
meet some new friends..

seriously, i was in a severe mood swing lately..
i guess it's bcoz of the unconscious stresses that i'm facing now..

assignments.. practical assessment.. midterms.. and of cause the INTERNSHIP!!!
many of us r facing major obstacles in deciding where to go.. who to ask.. and how to ask=.=

apparently, i did contact some organizations.. and hopefully i'll receive good news after i submit my CV la..

well, seriously pray that i'll get back to my good good mood b4 my practical assessment la.. if nt, 30minutes of counselling session will be gg-ed..

some sort of prophecy?

i'm nt sure wat happens, but tis is sth that i had experienced b4..

last time when i was young[yala im still young now], i used to dream about war EVERYTIME b4 cny for 7 years.. same dream and same time too.. i couldnt really recall back that dream vividly as i stops dreaming bout it after i told my mom about the dream i had.

wat i can rmb nw is that im seeing the dream as a 3rd person view n n n sometimes i can b 1 of the soldier down there, talking, fighting and killing.. [such violence for a naive, young, cute little boy for me tat time]

and nw, im having another dream that comes to me recently. i dream about going to future where i see my siblings,my son,mother but i cant find my dad n me myself..

i see tat my brother is signing contract in a conference and hahaha, finally he's married to my ah so now.. the room setting of his is still the same, jz hv more photos and accesory only..

on the other hand, my sis.. fuiyoh, dam crazy.. had lots of certificate, awards and if i m nt mistaken, she has to fly here, fly there as she's very bz with her work.. another part in my early dream is that she went to study abroad too..

meanwhile, my mom. she's the same still playing mahjong at my home.

interesting part is that, i met my son.. he looks like mixed, can say like matsaleh. but actually i think is bcoz of my gene only coz i do look like mat saleh when i was young[no lie no lie] my son, he seems to be very passionate in studying and lol, he has russian accent but he speaks mandarin to me.. lolx.. n got to know my future wife's surname is 钱..

hahaha, kinda funny la the dream that i hv. but the weird part is that, i cn actually continue the same dream in 2 different day??

is it coincidence?
or is it true that i went back to future :P?


p/s: u can skip by asking me the toto for tat day, coz the year i rmb i went to is 3309 year=.= which is totally make no sense... hahahaa..

there are always improvements for the gaps we have..

thanks every^^!!

Johari Window Model

came across to this model when the lecturer refer some aspects of self-awareness..

basically, there are four concepts that are stated in this Johari Window Model:

open[aka open-self] refers to those that u urself and others know about.. like ur age, gender, race,life role etc etc etc..

blind[aka blind-self] refers to those that u urself hv no idea about it whereas others may see it as obvious as is it.. for example, ur body odour, the way u treat fren, the way u talk, the way u walk etc etc etc..

hidden[aka hidden-self] refers to those that only u urself know about it and people around u do not hv any clue about it.. for example, ur darkest secret? like my darkest secret is...... of coz im not telling u then it wont be my hidden-self dy rite? :D

lastly, this is most tera 1, the unknown [aka unknown-self]. this self refers to the characteristics that u urself dunno bout it and others also tak tau. sound kinda abstract huh? actually it exists in u but it is buried deep inside the ur subconscious state or perhaps unconscious state of urs. the behaviours might be activated when u're asleep? like mayb u float half cm from the bed when u're sleeping? or when u meet a fight or flight situation where ur potential in fleeing increase and exceed the normal potential of urs..

well, for all these craps that i wrote, the real intention is that actually i'm amazed with human's capability. our limits have no boundary, our potentials are not defined and our abilities are unpredictable.. like some scientists say that we only use less than 10% of our brain in carrying out our daily activities, solving mathematics question, sketching drawing but wat about the rest of the brain?

will it be like if the rest of our brain's potential is unleashed, will we be gaining abilities like how our beloved characters gain in the series of "Heroes" ? we might be able to see micro things like germs or bacteria, or smell things frm 10km ahead or we can create electricity by using our brain wave???

hahaha.. although it is so unrealistic jz by imagining it, but who knows? one day ur son comes to u and said:" mom, i accidently sux out all the oxygen in my classroom.. what to do?" then mayb u should feel proud about it in a positive way, rather bi bi la la , cry like hell there, asking for treatment and grounding ur son for sux-ing the air..

think about it,
what ability might we possess if the hidden-self of us is familiarized :)

and yeah,

will be getting my last sem's result by tmr..

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well people, tmr im starting my year 2 sem 2 already lorr..
dam, time flies and 1 more sem then i'll b finishing my diploma already..

cant wait to see all my coll frens ^^
im sure every1 is doing great in their sem break, rite?

haha..
here's some shoots to share with u all ^^

all rite then.. gambateh gambateh for tis new sem ^^ !!

muahahahahaaaaaa~

witnessed 1st LIVE tennis match..

tennis is so so interesting.. especially when u're doing the surf. highest record that i noticed today was 218kmh!!! really walao ah, try to imagine u kena smack by tat surf..

and i start to doubt acts in 网球王子 already.. LOL.. reality is always the most realistic 1 >.>


well i'll try to take more photos to upload soon..
b patient ya ^^


p/s : recently so many ppl sick dy, take good care la.. adui ~